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Thinking about the big 06...
I had promised myself that I’d get to sleep at a reasonable hour, but obviously that’s not happening. So, I’m just gonna type for a bit. It’s kinda funny how the dawn of a new year prompts people to consider revamping themselves. I guess January is magic or something. Whatever. I don’t really take the whole “New Year resolution” thing seriously.
So, this upcoming year is going to involve several chapters in my life closing and others opening. I’m not really that excited about it. My whole take on life recently is to try to make it through in one piece, and then I can relax.
Thought about something I haven’t thought about in a while today and it hit me with some force. I hate how that happens. There are a lot of things that I miss dearly. I don’t know, I haven’t felt quite right recently. In a lot of ways I feel like a poor rendition of myself, a shell if that makes sense.
“Now nothing matters and everything, EVERY DAMNED THING, is important.”
I think that sums it up much neater than I ever could. Which leads us to one of the key problems, I really can’t express myself. Seriously, when it comes to me articulating anything about how I feel I just trip up and sound really stupid or say nothing at all. I don’t feel like I have the capacity to connect with people, which leaves me feeling like I’m stranded on some kind of emotional island.
Sometimes I wish I could get a glimpse of ten years into the future, to see if any of this is really going to be worth it.
Eh, the past few entries have been depressing and for that, I apologize. I’ve just been in this emotional slump for a while. I can’t even bring myself to write anymore. I’m not all that great at it, but it helps sometimes. When it comes down to it, I’m more or less a conglomeration of mediocrities and that’s frustrating.
I had promised myself that I’d get to sleep at a reasonable hour, but obviously that’s not happening. So, I’m just gonna type for a bit. It’s kinda funny how the dawn of a new year prompts people to consider revamping themselves. I guess January is magic or something. Whatever. I don’t really take the whole “New Year resolution” thing seriously.
So, this upcoming year is going to involve several chapters in my life closing and others opening. I’m not really that excited about it. My whole take on life recently is to try to make it through in one piece, and then I can relax.
Thought about something I haven’t thought about in a while today and it hit me with some force. I hate how that happens. There are a lot of things that I miss dearly. I don’t know, I haven’t felt quite right recently. In a lot of ways I feel like a poor rendition of myself, a shell if that makes sense.
“Now nothing matters and everything, EVERY DAMNED THING, is important.”
I think that sums it up much neater than I ever could. Which leads us to one of the key problems, I really can’t express myself. Seriously, when it comes to me articulating anything about how I feel I just trip up and sound really stupid or say nothing at all. I don’t feel like I have the capacity to connect with people, which leaves me feeling like I’m stranded on some kind of emotional island.
Sometimes I wish I could get a glimpse of ten years into the future, to see if any of this is really going to be worth it.
Eh, the past few entries have been depressing and for that, I apologize. I’ve just been in this emotional slump for a while. I can’t even bring myself to write anymore. I’m not all that great at it, but it helps sometimes. When it comes down to it, I’m more or less a conglomeration of mediocrities and that’s frustrating.