welcome back me
for those of you still alive you actually read my LJ..here's the update. i graduated college. moved to las vegas. teach 2nd grade. bought a brand new car. totalled it on the freeway. bought another one. both parents got fired and moved out my childhood home. my sister spent a semester in australia. had a boyfriend and broken up with him. made friends and lost some. bought a black kitten. ....and that should pretty much catch up the last year or so that i've been gone.
i decided to come back here because i don't think many people read this anymore. which means i can be a little free-er with what i say. this weekend has been okay. friday night was spent alone @ home (as usual). yesterday i spent the day @ home alone and ran a couple errands. i went to my brothers for an hour or so last night. today has been pretty good. mostly catching up on reading and sleep. i looked up some of my current symptoms on webmd.com. i think i have pancreatitis (resulting from my gallbladder crap a couple years ago). so i should probably get an appointment for that. too bad i don't have a doctor.
also...it's sad how talking to just one person can effect my mood so much. i still talk to my boyfriend. we got to be great friends and i'd like to keep that friendship. but...in all honesty...every single time i talk to him he does absolutely nothing but disappoint me. we haven't a had a decent conversation in weeks. and i really can't say why i keep calling him. i think i still have that bf/gf mentality with him. that if i call...he'll want to talk to me...and treat what i have to say with some importance. but he doesn't. 9 times out of 10 when i call he's busy. and that last 1 time...he's half asleep. so i tell him to call me when he's not busy. but ya know what?? i'm afraid if i really did let him call me...he wouldn't. it would weeks before i heard from him. and i guess that's ok. i mean we aren't going out anymore. but it still kinda stings when you used to have a constant listening ear...a confidante...and then you drop out of their radar completely. has it made me stronger?? very much so. i used to cry about it. now i just kinda blow it off. and try not to let it effect me. but....honestly....yeah. he does make my day a little worse after i call. *sigh* oh well. that is life.
life is a series of ups and downs. and lately mine seems to be on a down turn. will it get better? undoubtedly. but when....who knows?
i decided to come back here because i don't think many people read this anymore. which means i can be a little free-er with what i say. this weekend has been okay. friday night was spent alone @ home (as usual). yesterday i spent the day @ home alone and ran a couple errands. i went to my brothers for an hour or so last night. today has been pretty good. mostly catching up on reading and sleep. i looked up some of my current symptoms on webmd.com. i think i have pancreatitis (resulting from my gallbladder crap a couple years ago). so i should probably get an appointment for that. too bad i don't have a doctor.
also...it's sad how talking to just one person can effect my mood so much. i still talk to my boyfriend. we got to be great friends and i'd like to keep that friendship. but...in all honesty...every single time i talk to him he does absolutely nothing but disappoint me. we haven't a had a decent conversation in weeks. and i really can't say why i keep calling him. i think i still have that bf/gf mentality with him. that if i call...he'll want to talk to me...and treat what i have to say with some importance. but he doesn't. 9 times out of 10 when i call he's busy. and that last 1 time...he's half asleep. so i tell him to call me when he's not busy. but ya know what?? i'm afraid if i really did let him call me...he wouldn't. it would weeks before i heard from him. and i guess that's ok. i mean we aren't going out anymore. but it still kinda stings when you used to have a constant listening ear...a confidante...and then you drop out of their radar completely. has it made me stronger?? very much so. i used to cry about it. now i just kinda blow it off. and try not to let it effect me. but....honestly....yeah. he does make my day a little worse after i call. *sigh* oh well. that is life.
life is a series of ups and downs. and lately mine seems to be on a down turn. will it get better? undoubtedly. but when....who knows?