i just want to break you down so badly...in the worst way
i'm so hungry for something real. summer has begun and i feel seo refreshed but it isn't enough. i went to the hospital yesterday because i was having severe stomach pains..it turns out that i had a stomach virus that was causing my potassium level to drop dangerously low. i was at the hospital for 8 hours running tests and such. i was miserable but i'm better now. i called brian from the hospital but he couldn't come to see me and i won't lie...i was kind of upset.
other than the most recent events life has ben OK. brian and i have been together for a grand total of a year 3 months and then some. it's nice to know that i have one sure thing in my life but i only feel like that on our good days. Our relationship is either on top of the world or in the depths of dispair..it's never really in between. but i'm ok with that.i am still unemployed other than the paycheck i get for jonathan, i don't really have an income. i'm thinking about a job at.....forget that..i don't want a job. i am mainly in this blissful mode. i feel the SENIORites starting to kick in already and the school year is more than 2 months away....i'm graduating next year! i am soo unprepared....i'm so unsure........ and yet i have never felt so confident about something in my life. This summer marks the first of may steps and the last of many more. this will hopefully be my last summer with my parents..my last summer as a highschool student..my last summer as a minor(YES)...it is all so amazing. i love it.
other than the most recent events life has ben OK. brian and i have been together for a grand total of a year 3 months and then some. it's nice to know that i have one sure thing in my life but i only feel like that on our good days. Our relationship is either on top of the world or in the depths of dispair..it's never really in between. but i'm ok with that.i am still unemployed other than the paycheck i get for jonathan, i don't really have an income. i'm thinking about a job at.....forget that..i don't want a job. i am mainly in this blissful mode. i feel the SENIORites starting to kick in already and the school year is more than 2 months away....i'm graduating next year! i am soo unprepared....i'm so unsure........ and yet i have never felt so confident about something in my life. This summer marks the first of may steps and the last of many more. this will hopefully be my last summer with my parents..my last summer as a highschool student..my last summer as a minor(YES)...it is all so amazing. i love it.