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Well...Maybe I'm not depressed. I dunno...It's really been tough lately. And I've been crying a lot which I totally hate because it makes me feel weak. And when you're weak, you get hurt and then things get really bad.
anyways-
I've been trying to get my freakin schedule and like...future fixed...and I think I found a solution, but I don't like it AT ALL. I'm going to be behind-well, I'm ahead of everyone else my age...by a long shot...but I'm behind in what I want to do. The plan was I go into college as a Junior when I graduate correct? Well, since I changed what I was going to do, I'm now enrolled in the "screwed" department. So I think that I'm going to stay here for 2 more semesters and enroll in the summer session at one of the colleges. Otherwise, I can't be in the program that I want-I think...I'm not really sure. And these people at the colleges don't leave their e-mail adresses on the websites...just phone numbers...well-how am I suppose to call with a house phone that has no long distance and I can't use my parents because the office of admission closes at 5 and my parents don't get home until about 5:30 and sometimes 7? Idiots.
So that sucks. Just one more thing to be completely stressed out about. Another thing was that I never thought I would have to take Calculus (especially since I suck at math...gay) and I DO. Which is &hearts ly.
Things I have to take-
-Physics I & II/Labs
-Calculus
-Chemistry I & II/Labs
-Anatomy & Physiology I & II/Labs
-Psychology classes that aren't even offered down here
-Biology I/Lab
So just on that list we have about 11 classes that i have to take. Out of those 11-guess how many I have? 1. ONE. UNO. UN. (VARIOUS OTHER LANGUAGES)...
I have to sing in church tomorrow. I have cherrleading try-outs September 5-7or7-9 or something...I don't remember. I need to get my hair redone because it looks retarded being insanely blonde on tip and then like the other half of my head is brown/blonde...interesting. I need to get my eyebrows waxed. I need to get my nails refilled. I need to get my hair cut. I need to lose 37481975824975894320 lbs. (I hope that's a close estimate Joseph). I need to kill people. I need to move... I need to read my ethics book. I need to stop eating so much freakin chocolate. I need to brush my teeth right now...I need $32,847,320,947,329. Billions...yes-it's essential. I need people to stop LYING. I need to stop playing on the computer so much. I need to dust. I need to pack. I need to find some more presents for Katie's b-day. I need to finish more pages in my prom scrapbook. I need to apply for yearbook like I meant to. I need to wash my sheets. I need to do laundry. I need to beat Red Faction. I need to listen to Pink more often. I need to organize and clean my computer files nad folders and such. I need to HURRY UP AND GET MY FREAKIN TEXTBOOKS BLAH! I need to remember to buy mascara. I need to get a good-night's sleep for freakin ONCE. I need to sleep now. I need to take more pictures with my camera. I need to talk to Jacob some more. (So freakin call me BYTCH <--I know hwo much you LOVE LOVE LOVE that) I need to go out with Katie ALL THE TIME. I need to buy my dad's b-day present.
I need to make a To-Do List...*smile*
anyways-
I've been trying to get my freakin schedule and like...future fixed...and I think I found a solution, but I don't like it AT ALL. I'm going to be behind-well, I'm ahead of everyone else my age...by a long shot...but I'm behind in what I want to do. The plan was I go into college as a Junior when I graduate correct? Well, since I changed what I was going to do, I'm now enrolled in the "screwed" department. So I think that I'm going to stay here for 2 more semesters and enroll in the summer session at one of the colleges. Otherwise, I can't be in the program that I want-I think...I'm not really sure. And these people at the colleges don't leave their e-mail adresses on the websites...just phone numbers...well-how am I suppose to call with a house phone that has no long distance and I can't use my parents because the office of admission closes at 5 and my parents don't get home until about 5:30 and sometimes 7? Idiots.
So that sucks. Just one more thing to be completely stressed out about. Another thing was that I never thought I would have to take Calculus (especially since I suck at math...gay) and I DO. Which is &hearts ly.
Things I have to take-
-Physics I & II/Labs
-Calculus
-Chemistry I & II/Labs
-Anatomy & Physiology I & II/Labs
-Psychology classes that aren't even offered down here
-Biology I/Lab
So just on that list we have about 11 classes that i have to take. Out of those 11-guess how many I have? 1. ONE. UNO. UN. (VARIOUS OTHER LANGUAGES)...
I have to sing in church tomorrow. I have cherrleading try-outs September 5-7or7-9 or something...I don't remember. I need to get my hair redone because it looks retarded being insanely blonde on tip and then like the other half of my head is brown/blonde...interesting. I need to get my eyebrows waxed. I need to get my nails refilled. I need to get my hair cut. I need to lose 37481975824975894320 lbs. (I hope that's a close estimate Joseph). I need to kill people. I need to move... I need to read my ethics book. I need to stop eating so much freakin chocolate. I need to brush my teeth right now...I need $32,847,320,947,329. Billions...yes-it's essential. I need people to stop LYING. I need to stop playing on the computer so much. I need to dust. I need to pack. I need to find some more presents for Katie's b-day. I need to finish more pages in my prom scrapbook. I need to apply for yearbook like I meant to. I need to wash my sheets. I need to do laundry. I need to beat Red Faction. I need to listen to Pink more often. I need to organize and clean my computer files nad folders and such. I need to HURRY UP AND GET MY FREAKIN TEXTBOOKS BLAH! I need to remember to buy mascara. I need to get a good-night's sleep for freakin ONCE. I need to sleep now. I need to take more pictures with my camera. I need to talk to Jacob some more. (So freakin call me BYTCH <--I know hwo much you LOVE LOVE LOVE that) I need to go out with Katie ALL THE TIME. I need to buy my dad's b-day present.
I need to make a To-Do List...*smile*