Until then, good day.
I talk way to much. I think way to much. I cave way to easily. (I also talk about myself way to fucking much.) Stop saying and just do. I need to stop venting, people don't give a fuck. I'm in all of this by myself, I know this. But I still try and reach out in different forms. It works for a while but eventually I get rejected. Rejection puts such a damper on life.
At the moment I'm not even strong enough to depend on myself. Losing weight is much more than just trying to look better. It holds deeper meaning. I need to regain control of my life again. I need to be strong again. I need to prove to myself that I can be independent. Right now I just let distractions take over. I'm so fucking weak and it is so sad, so very very sad.
In honor of this sudden enlightenment and will to change, I've decided to boycott LJ and AIM for the duration of the month. These next few weeks will mean more than just continuing on with ABC. This is a self-training, a self-awareness boot camp if you will. I hope to train my mind and body into knowing who is boss. I hope to train my mind into understanding my priorities and sticking with them.
I can't be so afraid of life anymore. I can't be afraid to live. I can't be afraid to fail and I, I just can't be afraid. I need to grow some fucking balls and just, just do better!
I talk way to much. It's better to just do than say.
I'll be back at the end of the month. Please e-mail me ( monihkahh@gmail.com) if you guys need to vent / gloat about your success. I'll be around to listen just not around to share what is happening in my life, not until I've accomplished my goals.
Good luck girls. I hope March is a success for us all.
And I'm totally serious, I'll be around for you, just e-mail me. Good luck dears. =]
At the moment I'm not even strong enough to depend on myself. Losing weight is much more than just trying to look better. It holds deeper meaning. I need to regain control of my life again. I need to be strong again. I need to prove to myself that I can be independent. Right now I just let distractions take over. I'm so fucking weak and it is so sad, so very very sad.
In honor of this sudden enlightenment and will to change, I've decided to boycott LJ and AIM for the duration of the month. These next few weeks will mean more than just continuing on with ABC. This is a self-training, a self-awareness boot camp if you will. I hope to train my mind and body into knowing who is boss. I hope to train my mind into understanding my priorities and sticking with them.
I can't be so afraid of life anymore. I can't be afraid to live. I can't be afraid to fail and I, I just can't be afraid. I need to grow some fucking balls and just, just do better!
I talk way to much. It's better to just do than say.
I'll be back at the end of the month. Please e-mail me ( monihkahh@gmail.com) if you guys need to vent / gloat about your success. I'll be around to listen just not around to share what is happening in my life, not until I've accomplished my goals.
Good luck girls. I hope March is a success for us all.
And I'm totally serious, I'll be around for you, just e-mail me. Good luck dears. =]