I’m writing b/c I must get all of this out: being blunt & honest. Please be considerate this time
I am very irritated right now. Not only do I have the worst stomachache but also I feel very uncomfortable. I’m definitely overtired. I’m always overtired and Mario’s constant “worried mind” is rubbing off on me. I’m worrying about situations, people, and things that will be fine, when I should just be concentrating on my own problems. I’m on the verge of tears for absolutely no reason at all. My dog will not go to sleep because of her medication so she is aimlessly wandering around the kitchen, family room, and laundry room. School is dragging me down slowly simply because of everything else going on, it’s extremely difficult for me to get enthusiastically motivated to succeed or even to concentrate for that matter, like I was first semester. At the end of first semester I had begun to get these horrible panic attacks, so I saw my doctor who did nothing but send me to a psychologist who diagnosed me with “situational” panic attacks caused by stress. So all that I actually accomplished for myself was wasting $200 and my time. What isn’t a waste of time lately? Reffet never calls me when she says she is, now she’s gone on vacation: Bummer. It was Mario and my 3-month tonight, but he was distracted with a family problem so that was just that. I’m looking forward to going to the pistons game with Kelly on Friday and happy that school will be letting out shortly. For now, I have to get to bed for 6:30 AM will arrive quickly.