Things in my life right now.....
It seems like it's been forever since I've updated. Well, in fact it has...Big thing going on right now, is that I STILL don't know where I'm going next. In march when assignments came out for overseas, I didn't have one. I'm still trying however to stay in germany. The listing for US assignments came out this week...my options are...
5*Fairchild AFB, Washington
0*Mountain Home AFB, Idaho
0*Grand Forks AFB, North Dakota
0*Whiteman AFB, MO
4*Davis Monthan AFB, Arizona
6*Lackland AFB, Texas
3*Barksdale AFB, Louisiana
1*Charleston AFB, South Carolina
2*Pope AFB, North Carolina
I have put numbers by these in the order that I'm going to request them when I update my dreamsheet. Needless to say, I'm not that happy about any of them, off the bat...I think it is because I want so badly to stay here in Germany. I'm even looking into other options...like getting out of the military, and trying to work as a civilian for the government. I have to first put together a resume' before I can apply to see what I would even get if I get out. But then I think is it the best thing for me? I've been in the military now for 6 years. Can you believe it? I know I can't. But I've grown alot being in the miltary. Of course I'm still not where I want to be, or do what I want to do...sometimes I think I'm farther. But I keep going on this road, and I don't know why. Probably because I'm scared of change. Always have been.
On another note, I'm taking a German Language class....FINALLY! A few years too late..but it's cool. I just had to really wait till I was ready to get into it, and I really like it. It makes me feel good that I can actually keep focus in a class...most of the time I loose focus really easily and quickly. But so far so good. I'm going into my 4th week...with 4 more to go. Although because of the military I may have to drop the class, because they want to send me to ALS (airman leadership school), which may begin before I'm done with the class...AND, before I'm even supposed to test for Staff Sargent. Right now I'm schedualed to test on 18May...but if I goto ALS before that date then that means they'll move up my test date..which I'm not perpared to test early. I was really looking forward to testing in mid-May. Oh well...the only cool thing about going to ALS would be that I get out of my shit-hole job for about a month or so. =) And that is always good news!
So Martin and I are still together. Sometimes I don't feel good about it but then sometimes I do. I think it's because of this unknowing of where I'm going to be after September. He's also really busy with stuff that he is trying to accomplish for himself. He is also trying to goto school..the German School system is really weird and I'm not even going to try to explain it now..just trust me! Anyways, he wants to do Landscaping, which is about 4 years of school. Plus he's really into his music...he's a really great bass player..and I'm not just saying that. Right now he's been practicing because he wants to be in this Metal Band...he has to get used to playing fast. So he's been practice that alot along with playing with his other band. I just think, about if I go to the states. What happens then? It'll be like what happened the last time, I'm sure, when I came here to Germany and left the relationship I was in. I just can't help but think that it won't work. But..maybe it will. Patience. That's what I need.
Ok..well, I have some studying to do, and then I'm supposed to go get Audreas daughters at about 330 or 4...she's at Ramstein with her Boyfriend and the girls were watched last night by this other girl and then they'll be watched by me till Audrea gets home. I'm really not the mother type. But we'll see how it goes. I wish I had some stuff for them to work on..like crafts or something. I'm such the kind of person that donsn't like kids to mess things up...I make my own messes and have a hard enough time getting motivated to clean it up...now there will be their mess! LOL! I'm sure it'll be different when I have kids of my own..whenever that will be....God...hopefully now anytime soon! =)
Ok...later tators.
5*Fairchild AFB, Washington
0*Mountain Home AFB, Idaho
0*Grand Forks AFB, North Dakota
0*Whiteman AFB, MO
4*Davis Monthan AFB, Arizona
6*Lackland AFB, Texas
3*Barksdale AFB, Louisiana
1*Charleston AFB, South Carolina
2*Pope AFB, North Carolina
I have put numbers by these in the order that I'm going to request them when I update my dreamsheet. Needless to say, I'm not that happy about any of them, off the bat...I think it is because I want so badly to stay here in Germany. I'm even looking into other options...like getting out of the military, and trying to work as a civilian for the government. I have to first put together a resume' before I can apply to see what I would even get if I get out. But then I think is it the best thing for me? I've been in the military now for 6 years. Can you believe it? I know I can't. But I've grown alot being in the miltary. Of course I'm still not where I want to be, or do what I want to do...sometimes I think I'm farther. But I keep going on this road, and I don't know why. Probably because I'm scared of change. Always have been.
On another note, I'm taking a German Language class....FINALLY! A few years too late..but it's cool. I just had to really wait till I was ready to get into it, and I really like it. It makes me feel good that I can actually keep focus in a class...most of the time I loose focus really easily and quickly. But so far so good. I'm going into my 4th week...with 4 more to go. Although because of the military I may have to drop the class, because they want to send me to ALS (airman leadership school), which may begin before I'm done with the class...AND, before I'm even supposed to test for Staff Sargent. Right now I'm schedualed to test on 18May...but if I goto ALS before that date then that means they'll move up my test date..which I'm not perpared to test early. I was really looking forward to testing in mid-May. Oh well...the only cool thing about going to ALS would be that I get out of my shit-hole job for about a month or so. =) And that is always good news!
So Martin and I are still together. Sometimes I don't feel good about it but then sometimes I do. I think it's because of this unknowing of where I'm going to be after September. He's also really busy with stuff that he is trying to accomplish for himself. He is also trying to goto school..the German School system is really weird and I'm not even going to try to explain it now..just trust me! Anyways, he wants to do Landscaping, which is about 4 years of school. Plus he's really into his music...he's a really great bass player..and I'm not just saying that. Right now he's been practicing because he wants to be in this Metal Band...he has to get used to playing fast. So he's been practice that alot along with playing with his other band. I just think, about if I go to the states. What happens then? It'll be like what happened the last time, I'm sure, when I came here to Germany and left the relationship I was in. I just can't help but think that it won't work. But..maybe it will. Patience. That's what I need.
Ok..well, I have some studying to do, and then I'm supposed to go get Audreas daughters at about 330 or 4...she's at Ramstein with her Boyfriend and the girls were watched last night by this other girl and then they'll be watched by me till Audrea gets home. I'm really not the mother type. But we'll see how it goes. I wish I had some stuff for them to work on..like crafts or something. I'm such the kind of person that donsn't like kids to mess things up...I make my own messes and have a hard enough time getting motivated to clean it up...now there will be their mess! LOL! I'm sure it'll be different when I have kids of my own..whenever that will be....God...hopefully now anytime soon! =)
Ok...later tators.