Jan 28, 2009 23:14
i love when shit explodes.
i haven't felt so livid in a long time. not sure if i've ever felt so angry that i felt like i was going to vomit before. first time for everything, i suppose.
tess and i are talking about moving somewhere entirely random when my lease is up at the end of may. nashua, pittsburgh, california, virginia beach, somewhere, anywhere, that isn't here.
i'm so tired of bullshit.
but you know, i'm the bad guy, and everything is my fault, and i'm a horrendous bitch, and my friends are not my friends and people don't like me anymore.
i never asked for a pedestal.
our current plan is somewhere random for six months, then probably home to syracuse for a little bit to save up money again, then maybe, MAYBE rochester if things have calmed enough that i can stomach this city again. or maybe buffalo. or maybe somewhere new and exciting.
life is an adventure, and i want to live it instead of stagnating and being stuck in this rut of a city.