retrospective
joining i'm sure the many people posting things looking back on the year, and returning to something i've done in the past as well....
what have i accomplished? what do i have to show for myself?
left the job that wasn't making me happy. found one that does.
went back to ireland, reset my internal balance.
moved, again.
made new friends.
and.... what? travelled a lot. went to amtgard events.
haven't finished any of my stories.
haven't written a book.
got myself into lots of debt that i'm having trouble dealing with.
but overall i'm pretty happy these days, which is important. there's always stressers, and always things to worry me, and things that get me down some days, but i have friends who are worth their weight in gold, and who treat me well and take care of me.
i learned some things about myself, i learned some life lessons, i learned how to be alone without being lonely, i let go of some things that i was clinging to for too long.
i think for the new year, i need to set myself some goals. i'm going to be 25 in may (dear god i'm old.) and i need to have some things accomplished. i NEED TO WRITE A BOOK. i need to finish something before i turn 25. i need to have something to show for my LIFE. i need to be productive, i need to seriously set myself on the path that i've been talking about for so long and slightly meandering down but not going very far. every time i see my dad he asks me how many pages i've written. i need to be able to honestly tell him 'fifty' or 'a hundred' or 'a thousand' when he asks me, not dodge the subject or make excuses for myself.
i need to stop being afraid that i can't do it and just do it instead.
new year, new resolve.
(also, nate rocks :p)
what have i accomplished? what do i have to show for myself?
left the job that wasn't making me happy. found one that does.
went back to ireland, reset my internal balance.
moved, again.
made new friends.
and.... what? travelled a lot. went to amtgard events.
haven't finished any of my stories.
haven't written a book.
got myself into lots of debt that i'm having trouble dealing with.
but overall i'm pretty happy these days, which is important. there's always stressers, and always things to worry me, and things that get me down some days, but i have friends who are worth their weight in gold, and who treat me well and take care of me.
i learned some things about myself, i learned some life lessons, i learned how to be alone without being lonely, i let go of some things that i was clinging to for too long.
i think for the new year, i need to set myself some goals. i'm going to be 25 in may (dear god i'm old.) and i need to have some things accomplished. i NEED TO WRITE A BOOK. i need to finish something before i turn 25. i need to have something to show for my LIFE. i need to be productive, i need to seriously set myself on the path that i've been talking about for so long and slightly meandering down but not going very far. every time i see my dad he asks me how many pages i've written. i need to be able to honestly tell him 'fifty' or 'a hundred' or 'a thousand' when he asks me, not dodge the subject or make excuses for myself.
i need to stop being afraid that i can't do it and just do it instead.
new year, new resolve.
(also, nate rocks :p)