Serious Request
I'd like to beg a favour of all y'all. A really serious one. And it only takes about five or ten minutes.
All right. You clicked. That gives me hope.
If you're reading my journal, chances are, you know me pretty well. Chances are, you like me. I need you to focus on the former and forget the latter.
Before you start thinking I'm depressed or something, the explanation for the next paragraph is in the one after it.
The request: I need you to tell me what I do that's wrong. Be it a trait I have, something I have done or still do that grates on your nerves. Reasons why I'm not as strong as I pretend to be. Basically, your goal is to tell me enough true things about myself to make me cry.
The reason: January is approaching fast, and that's when I make an appointment, take a deep breath, drive up to Vermont, and talk to Colonel Henne face to face at Norwich.
I'm really starting to get nervous. Hell with nervous, actually. I'm really starting to get scared.
I need to have a very realistic assessment of myself, especially those things I don't want to think about. Because that's what's going to get dredged up that day. That's the day I have to satisfactorily explain why I can succeed when I failed before. And that's the day I have to satisfactorily explain why my faults won't stand in the way.
Before I can do that, I need to have a very, very realistic understanding of what my faults are. The things that are a part of me that I don't like to think about, and friends don't like to point out.
I basically need you to tell me any and all reasons you can think of as to why I'd fail at Norwich. I need to know that I can explain dispassionately why I can leap whatever hurdles you come up with.
I'll start for you: I'm overly emotional. I'm a bit unstable. I cry too readily, and I snap at people when I'm tired, stressed, or irritable. These situations and emotions will be present in an extreme at Norwich. I can overcome this because I've been working on it for the last two years, and I've felt supports of control start to form. I've begun to be able to talk about my failure without automatically sobbing. I talked about reasons I might fail today, and I did not cry. I think that these foundations will be enough to get me through the beginning, after which the bricks on top of the foundation will be formed by my experiences in the Corps.
All right. You clicked. That gives me hope.
If you're reading my journal, chances are, you know me pretty well. Chances are, you like me. I need you to focus on the former and forget the latter.
Before you start thinking I'm depressed or something, the explanation for the next paragraph is in the one after it.
The request: I need you to tell me what I do that's wrong. Be it a trait I have, something I have done or still do that grates on your nerves. Reasons why I'm not as strong as I pretend to be. Basically, your goal is to tell me enough true things about myself to make me cry.
The reason: January is approaching fast, and that's when I make an appointment, take a deep breath, drive up to Vermont, and talk to Colonel Henne face to face at Norwich.
I'm really starting to get nervous. Hell with nervous, actually. I'm really starting to get scared.
I need to have a very realistic assessment of myself, especially those things I don't want to think about. Because that's what's going to get dredged up that day. That's the day I have to satisfactorily explain why I can succeed when I failed before. And that's the day I have to satisfactorily explain why my faults won't stand in the way.
Before I can do that, I need to have a very, very realistic understanding of what my faults are. The things that are a part of me that I don't like to think about, and friends don't like to point out.
I basically need you to tell me any and all reasons you can think of as to why I'd fail at Norwich. I need to know that I can explain dispassionately why I can leap whatever hurdles you come up with.
I'll start for you: I'm overly emotional. I'm a bit unstable. I cry too readily, and I snap at people when I'm tired, stressed, or irritable. These situations and emotions will be present in an extreme at Norwich. I can overcome this because I've been working on it for the last two years, and I've felt supports of control start to form. I've begun to be able to talk about my failure without automatically sobbing. I talked about reasons I might fail today, and I did not cry. I think that these foundations will be enough to get me through the beginning, after which the bricks on top of the foundation will be formed by my experiences in the Corps.