Lost Love.

[teleiotitia]

 She still gives me butterflies and makes me nervous to this day.
I cant help but love her. and I am more than in love with her.
She is the one I know I want to spend my life with.
And everyday, although we arent together, I fall more and more in love with her.
Its like I am falling in love with her all over again..

Ive also never felt this love before.
This amazing love. It kills me she doesnt think it is real, pure.
Others will have my past. Never my heart. She will always carry that with her.

These feelings are indescribable. the love. the pain.
You cant place them into words.
They are emotions you couldnt imagine.

This beautiful,
intelligent,
strong
sarcastically funny,
witty
woman walked into my life in February, she changed my life.
She taught me what love was.
She showed me how to be stronger.
She encouraged me in all aspects in my life.
She believed in me. She allowed me to open up.
I trusted her fully.
I will never be the same.
She didnt save me, she is not my savior.
Hell if I need one of those.
But she was my partner.
my best friend.

I know I am strong.
Look at what Ive been through.
I dont need people. I can only rely on myself.

What do you do when you are at such a place of unknown.

Of what your life will be.
Or should be.
Or if the one you love the most will want to even come back to you.