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Trust.
The essential ingredient to every family, friendship and relationship. My lack of closeness and all three categories is the result of a lack of trust. I feel like no one is worthy of it. I do trust the person I am with, mostly. I do lack close friendships. It's hard though. I have so many reasons not to be close to people. I want to though. I want trust. I need new friendships and experiences. I need to put myself out there, let go a bit. I need to let go of everything that is restraining me from living. My anxiety, depression, all of those negative feelings and negative people. It's a tough goal but I'm willing to work at it. I feel so much change overcoming me. I feel myself evolving from the inside out.
The essential ingredient to every family, friendship and relationship. My lack of closeness and all three categories is the result of a lack of trust. I feel like no one is worthy of it. I do trust the person I am with, mostly. I do lack close friendships. It's hard though. I have so many reasons not to be close to people. I want to though. I want trust. I need new friendships and experiences. I need to put myself out there, let go a bit. I need to let go of everything that is restraining me from living. My anxiety, depression, all of those negative feelings and negative people. It's a tough goal but I'm willing to work at it. I feel so much change overcoming me. I feel myself evolving from the inside out.