Feeling low. Hoping for an up-current.

[teknolojik]

If I've been being a douche to you lately, I'm sorry. I have alot on my mind, and... I dunno if its a mood thing, or what. Bob used to be anxious to write music and get things accomplished. I guess he has alot of shit on his mind, and being "down with bacon" is really fuckin demanding. since we've had our jamspace for a whole month, we've (him and I specifically) only had 1 real writing session. We rarely even hang out just for the sake of chillin. We're both busy, but If i know bobby is willing, I'm willing to put writing before other shit. I'm always down to write with the other dudes, but when me and bob get that late-night caffeine-fueled shit going... It's almost as though God is breathing musical genius into our souls. I know it'd be ridiculous to hope that everything goes 'my way', but I'm hoping for collective band good and it's almost as though it's a problem.

Karl... sorry for being so contentious with you lately. I'm being a bitch because I'm stressed out and it seems like my cousin only ever wants to party. My friends are growing distant because I care about things that don't, or shouldn't involve drugs or alcohol. Being the "no" guy is causing a real, live rift. On my part, because I feel like they don't want me being a downer, and on their part because they don't think I care to be around. Sorry for taking it out on you.

It's bothering me that school hardly means a fucking thing to me, and it's costing me so much money.

I'm sick and my whole body hurts. I only got 4 hours at work this week, and I feel too gross to go apply for more jobs. I'm gonna nap.