Discovery (Not the Daft Punk album.)
Can't clown, eat will sleep me.
Going on week four of being jobless. Unemployment is still fucking with me, delaying my payment, demanding I call them. How am I supposed to call them when their phone system keeps telling me "too many people are on hold, sorry, bye"? Still looking for a job, having no luck because no one is actually hiring right now. Most of my job seeking is relegated to my home computer, because I have no car insurance, so the DMV suspended my registration, and I have no money to ride the bus. Being too poor for even the bus means I can't afford food or rent. To make matters worse, the two people I love and treasure most dearly have left for another state, so I don't even have their support right now (by support I mean them being here for me, not them paying for my shit).
As for the actual Discovery in the title, I discovered things tonight which make me angry. Angry, because I believe them to be false. The person I discovered them from didn't lie to me. I believe the person who told that person lied, or at least edited the truth. Who knows, I don't care. I have too many thoughts and feelings inside right now to even sleep, even though I am dead tired.
Anger
Despair
Hopelessness
Depression
Going on week four of being jobless. Unemployment is still fucking with me, delaying my payment, demanding I call them. How am I supposed to call them when their phone system keeps telling me "too many people are on hold, sorry, bye"? Still looking for a job, having no luck because no one is actually hiring right now. Most of my job seeking is relegated to my home computer, because I have no car insurance, so the DMV suspended my registration, and I have no money to ride the bus. Being too poor for even the bus means I can't afford food or rent. To make matters worse, the two people I love and treasure most dearly have left for another state, so I don't even have their support right now (by support I mean them being here for me, not them paying for my shit).
As for the actual Discovery in the title, I discovered things tonight which make me angry. Angry, because I believe them to be false. The person I discovered them from didn't lie to me. I believe the person who told that person lied, or at least edited the truth. Who knows, I don't care. I have too many thoughts and feelings inside right now to even sleep, even though I am dead tired.
Anger
Despair
Hopelessness
Depression