Plehs and Family
I'm quite blah lately. Yesterday was my first day off in nine days. How did I celebrate? Sleeping in until 11:12am and then washing every bit of laundry ever. Clothes, towels, bedding, etc. Woo.. productive! I then proceeded to organize Tom's t-shirt drawers for no apparent reason.
Then last night, I had a most peculiar dream. Tom came home from work and said he'd gotten a new job, but we had to move NOW. We packed up some things, with haste and he said to leave the rest, it would be shipped to us. Where were we headed? Springfield, Missouri. Ookay... so now we had to house hunt. We had our pick, as most of the houses on this one street were deserted. Either they were boarded up condemned or just abandoned. We finally got to this one house that was perfect. It had a huge living room, vaulted ceilings, but the area that won me over was the corner of the house-- it was exactly like my parent's house. It was a replica of the downstairs 3 rooms in the corner- the bathroom, my old room, the linen closet, and the master bedroom. I remember I started to cry in my dream and I was saying, "This is perfect. We have to have this place!" After that I remember walking through the rest of the house and coming across one room that I was like, "this is a perfect room for my dance studio!" Yes, I dream about dancing again. Shut it. Then I woke up.. I know, abrupt ending.
That brings me to today. I've been trying for weeks to get a hold of the Sears Optical Center at University Park Mall in Mishawaka. I'll either get a busy signal or no one picks up. So I figure fine, fuck it, I'll just drive up. I need new frames and new sunglasses. I doubt my prescription has changed, so I had no intention of getting an eye exam. I just wanted to see if they could pull up my info and get me my new stuff. So I get there... keep in mind it takes me about 45 minutes to drive up there. I finally find the optical center in Sears and the guy tells me that not only can they not access my records, but that since it's been 2 years since my last eye exam, my prescription has expired and they wouldn't release it to them anyway. Great. I figure I'll schedule an eye exam. Nope. Their optometrist retired a few months ago and they haven't gotten a replacement. FANTASTIC. The guy there was able to fix my sunglasses, so it wasn't a complete loss, just irritating.
So there I am at UP, bored out of my mind that I just spent a good chunk of time driving up there only to be told that I can't be helped. The next closest Sears with an optical center is a good hour and half from me-- fuck that. I call up my dad to tell him what's up. As I talk to him, I feel myself wanting to cry. What?! It's just glasses! I didn't even wanna go up in the first place! Then it donned on me- I miss my family. I'm really familysick right now. I haven't seen my parents since early March. Granted I talk to my mom just about every day, but it's not the same. Family is a huge part of my life- which is why I, and all my friends, keep pushing the marriage issue with Tom and I. I want family. I have family, I want to make my family bigger. Technically, in 3 years we'll be under common law marriage anyway, but I would like him to take me as someone he wants to spend the rest of his life with freely- not by force. Do I want offspring? Not right now- besides the fact that doesn't negate family anyway. I want to be Tom's wife and eventually move to Cincinnati so we can be closer to his family and mine. Not only would I be a little over an hour from my mom and dad, but I'd be closer to most of my dad's side as well. We'd also be close to Tom's brother and his wife with the impending child of doom (kidding, Sara!! I love you and peanut! I'm trying to make him/her sound evil), and closer to Tom's family.
So yeah... I've been depressed lately and I think it's just because I want a dose of family love. My mom, dad, sisters, cousins, aunts, uncles, Grandma, my technical in-laws, everyone. *sigh* July's coming up soon and I'll get a decent dose then of dad's side, plus my mom and sister are coming up next week... it's just not soon enough.
Then last night, I had a most peculiar dream. Tom came home from work and said he'd gotten a new job, but we had to move NOW. We packed up some things, with haste and he said to leave the rest, it would be shipped to us. Where were we headed? Springfield, Missouri. Ookay... so now we had to house hunt. We had our pick, as most of the houses on this one street were deserted. Either they were boarded up condemned or just abandoned. We finally got to this one house that was perfect. It had a huge living room, vaulted ceilings, but the area that won me over was the corner of the house-- it was exactly like my parent's house. It was a replica of the downstairs 3 rooms in the corner- the bathroom, my old room, the linen closet, and the master bedroom. I remember I started to cry in my dream and I was saying, "This is perfect. We have to have this place!" After that I remember walking through the rest of the house and coming across one room that I was like, "this is a perfect room for my dance studio!" Yes, I dream about dancing again. Shut it. Then I woke up.. I know, abrupt ending.
That brings me to today. I've been trying for weeks to get a hold of the Sears Optical Center at University Park Mall in Mishawaka. I'll either get a busy signal or no one picks up. So I figure fine, fuck it, I'll just drive up. I need new frames and new sunglasses. I doubt my prescription has changed, so I had no intention of getting an eye exam. I just wanted to see if they could pull up my info and get me my new stuff. So I get there... keep in mind it takes me about 45 minutes to drive up there. I finally find the optical center in Sears and the guy tells me that not only can they not access my records, but that since it's been 2 years since my last eye exam, my prescription has expired and they wouldn't release it to them anyway. Great. I figure I'll schedule an eye exam. Nope. Their optometrist retired a few months ago and they haven't gotten a replacement. FANTASTIC. The guy there was able to fix my sunglasses, so it wasn't a complete loss, just irritating.
So there I am at UP, bored out of my mind that I just spent a good chunk of time driving up there only to be told that I can't be helped. The next closest Sears with an optical center is a good hour and half from me-- fuck that. I call up my dad to tell him what's up. As I talk to him, I feel myself wanting to cry. What?! It's just glasses! I didn't even wanna go up in the first place! Then it donned on me- I miss my family. I'm really familysick right now. I haven't seen my parents since early March. Granted I talk to my mom just about every day, but it's not the same. Family is a huge part of my life- which is why I, and all my friends, keep pushing the marriage issue with Tom and I. I want family. I have family, I want to make my family bigger. Technically, in 3 years we'll be under common law marriage anyway, but I would like him to take me as someone he wants to spend the rest of his life with freely- not by force. Do I want offspring? Not right now- besides the fact that doesn't negate family anyway. I want to be Tom's wife and eventually move to Cincinnati so we can be closer to his family and mine. Not only would I be a little over an hour from my mom and dad, but I'd be closer to most of my dad's side as well. We'd also be close to Tom's brother and his wife with the impending child of doom (kidding, Sara!! I love you and peanut! I'm trying to make him/her sound evil), and closer to Tom's family.
So yeah... I've been depressed lately and I think it's just because I want a dose of family love. My mom, dad, sisters, cousins, aunts, uncles, Grandma, my technical in-laws, everyone. *sigh* July's coming up soon and I'll get a decent dose then of dad's side, plus my mom and sister are coming up next week... it's just not soon enough.