the whole college thing.
Well...
College is here.
And it's funny because I've been waiting for this moment for so long.
When you're in elementary, you can't wait to get to the high school. And when you're in high school you can't wait until you get to college. And when you're in college you can't wait to HAVE A LIFE.
I currently have no life on campus. I don't know if that's a bad thing or a good thing. So I'm deciding to try out new things. For instance, like auditioning for plays. I went to auditions last night and tonight, and tomorrow are callbacks (we find out who gets called back tomorrow morning). In all honesty, I hope I do not get called back. I don't think my audition was all that great, and I honestly did it just to see what is like in comparison to high school.
Now that I've seen it, I don't know for sure if it's my path of traveling.
And if I do happen to get a part, I'm going to be in a large dilemma.
So I honestly don't know.
I can't even tell if I don't want to do it or if it's just a question of confidence. Maybe I should just stick to volleyball? And pursue that a little bit further. I don't know.
I want to do something though. I don't know if theater is really my interest anymore. It's a whole new level now, and I don't know if I'm ready or even capable of grasping that new plane.
Either way, I'm going to find something to do with my life here. I hate being a nobody. I want to be involved with something.
Then again, maybe I should be just a nobody.
I don't know.
There is a lot that I don't know anymore.
I'm thinking that comes natural with my age.
But I don't know. lol.
Confusing.
-jackson