Trying to decide it's OK if I cry _now_
We just spent the last hour and a half looking for our cat Taffy. We hadn't seen her snce about midday and she didn't even come for dinner. We looked all over the house and couldn't find her, then went outside and looked and I wandered all over outside for an hour w/ a flashlight calling her. She's an inside cat and we're not sure how well she would survive outside, esp cuz there are everything from skunks to raccons to coyotes in the woods behind our place. Also, though not raining it, it was thundering and lightning in the distance, which always makes her nervous.
Once I heard what sounded like the high pitched squealing of a raccorn when it's fighting and rustling in the bushes and I don't know if I was more scared or hopeful as I ran toward it but it didn't seem to be her. Once or twice I ran into a pien tree and the needles were jsut a bit of a sting but it was enough to almost make me lose it. Overall I wasn't sure if I was more afraid to find her or not find her.
So we finally gave up. My mom would occasioally sniffle a bit and she had a catch in her voice and I thought - You can't start to cry becuase if you do I'll lose it. I was just going to commiserate here on LJ when my mom called - she had seen something moving out of the corner of her eye in the kitchen. There was Taffy, crouching under the table; she then ran upstairs. I got here and here heart was going a mile a minute. I don't know where she was all day - we had a guy deliver salt for the water softenere - maybe she ran downstairs when he came and if she hid in the back room where the softener is, it may have scared her even more when he filled it. Plus it's been scattered T-stroms all day so that may have made her edgier.
Any way, I'm pretty relieved, tho I think I'm more likely to cry now that it's not so tense ...
Once I heard what sounded like the high pitched squealing of a raccorn when it's fighting and rustling in the bushes and I don't know if I was more scared or hopeful as I ran toward it but it didn't seem to be her. Once or twice I ran into a pien tree and the needles were jsut a bit of a sting but it was enough to almost make me lose it. Overall I wasn't sure if I was more afraid to find her or not find her.
So we finally gave up. My mom would occasioally sniffle a bit and she had a catch in her voice and I thought - You can't start to cry becuase if you do I'll lose it. I was just going to commiserate here on LJ when my mom called - she had seen something moving out of the corner of her eye in the kitchen. There was Taffy, crouching under the table; she then ran upstairs. I got here and here heart was going a mile a minute. I don't know where she was all day - we had a guy deliver salt for the water softenere - maybe she ran downstairs when he came and if she hid in the back room where the softener is, it may have scared her even more when he filled it. Plus it's been scattered T-stroms all day so that may have made her edgier.
Any way, I'm pretty relieved, tho I think I'm more likely to cry now that it's not so tense ...