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[tejasbhatt]

This feels like a Rorschach test
these chance encounters
each accompanied by
a steady progression
of your happiness
and my abject misery

What am I to make
of the knowledge
that that which I waited
so long for
came so easily
to you with another

That which I will never have
is yours to give freely
to someone else
so readily

Your alacrity
discombobulates
and my steely resolve
crumbles

How do I fault you
for that which I wished
for you to have
time and again

How do I forgive you
for taking away
that which I wished
for myself to have

How do I tell you
that I still
love
and that all will be forgiven
if you just return

There is so much more
that I want to say to you
but
really
what's the point

I can't
you won't listen
and I am unable
to make you

That, perhaps
is the greatest loss
that you will never
fully understand

You
whom I used to share everything
with
are no longer available

You
are not mine
and that
I will never forget

You
are the one
I will never
stop loving

And that
is how I have been ruined
now
and forever

Forever
they say
is a long time
the rest of your life

What they don't know
is that I promised
to love you
forever in this life
and every other

And that is a promise
that  I don't know
how
to break

Maybe I should ask you
but you won't talk
to me

I am nothing
if not broken
there is no other
fix but you

Come back
All is forgiven
Please