The Ocean Takes My Pain Away
so here ive waited a long ass time to write yet again...but its just been to late at night (note everytime i decide to write) theres always something more important that i ahve to do. such as now, i should be doing my portfolio thats due tomorrow, but i wont because i got an extension on it. i still have to start ugh! but whatever. my weekend wasnt all that great honestly. friday was pretty kool, i halfway got my license lol, chilled with the mamacitas, got some chinese food, then partied for quite some time. i ended up quickly sober and in a bad mood, interesting huh?
the next day me and the chicas went to the beach (yes, in the middle of october) when we saw a couple ppl from our vball team. so we stopped and played around with them for a while, but once again, i left in a bad mood. came back to my room, showered, did a little studyin. odd? homework on saturday? OF COURSE IT WAS! but i felt good about it. ended up havin a bit of a cleansing of the eyes session, if u know what i mean. but it turned out to be a pretty wonderful night, thanks to my college best friend minnesota. we watched fahrenheit 9/11 and just bashed on bush til like 2 am it was great! GO KERRY! i finally went to bed and talked to matts drunk ass, haha. it was the funniest thing i ever heard. him and his krunk kan. i recieved a phone call at 5 am that went a little like this...
Krystal:(in a sleepy voice) hello?
Matt:KRYSTAL!
Krystal:(still sleepy) yeah?
Matt: I LOVE YOU!!!
Krystal:(sleep AND confused at this point) i love you too
Matt:(quickly hangs up the phone)
interesting huh? yeah i thought so as well
sunday i spent all day studying for my music exam, which im pretty sure i bombed by the way, and eventually kaiti joined me and we had a jam session to all the oldies but goodies. ya know, BSB, Nsync, Britney, even the greats THE BEATLES! (we decided not to touch the hanson collection, that would have overdone it a bit) she went to her room and passed out eventually. so i chilled with reese/nicola with the penne alfredo YUMMY. we just talked until i was swept away to Whataburger. it was nice, i came back, talked to nic for a sec, and talked to matt for some time.
my alarm was set so i could wake up and study some more for my test, but did that happen? NOOOOOOOO not only was i late for my first class, but i didnt listen to the songs i was supposedd to for music...bummer u say? correct. tonight has been strange but turned out ok, i was told that ive changed, ive been told that before but it was for the good. i was finally starting to be happy with who i am and stop worrying what other people want me to be (gavin degraw couldnt say it any better) but if i cant be accepted for the way i am, than that sounds like a personal problem, that ur gonna have to fix on your own...BUT on a good note, even though the weekend was rough, matt and i got through it and i love him with all my soul and i hope he knows that for sure now, i dont care what u people have to say about it, hes it for me PERIOD! i miss him and this whole separation thing gets harder every day but im gonna do it as long as i have to. i dont care how much i cry or how much it hurts, i know its all gonna be worth it in the end :-D
AND IM TIRED!!!!!!!! GOSH this thing keeps me up all the time its rediculous...but its time for me to get the rest ive needed for quite some time...goodnight
<3Krys
the next day me and the chicas went to the beach (yes, in the middle of october) when we saw a couple ppl from our vball team. so we stopped and played around with them for a while, but once again, i left in a bad mood. came back to my room, showered, did a little studyin. odd? homework on saturday? OF COURSE IT WAS! but i felt good about it. ended up havin a bit of a cleansing of the eyes session, if u know what i mean. but it turned out to be a pretty wonderful night, thanks to my college best friend minnesota. we watched fahrenheit 9/11 and just bashed on bush til like 2 am it was great! GO KERRY! i finally went to bed and talked to matts drunk ass, haha. it was the funniest thing i ever heard. him and his krunk kan. i recieved a phone call at 5 am that went a little like this...
Krystal:(in a sleepy voice) hello?
Matt:KRYSTAL!
Krystal:(still sleepy) yeah?
Matt: I LOVE YOU!!!
Krystal:(sleep AND confused at this point) i love you too
Matt:(quickly hangs up the phone)
interesting huh? yeah i thought so as well
sunday i spent all day studying for my music exam, which im pretty sure i bombed by the way, and eventually kaiti joined me and we had a jam session to all the oldies but goodies. ya know, BSB, Nsync, Britney, even the greats THE BEATLES! (we decided not to touch the hanson collection, that would have overdone it a bit) she went to her room and passed out eventually. so i chilled with reese/nicola with the penne alfredo YUMMY. we just talked until i was swept away to Whataburger. it was nice, i came back, talked to nic for a sec, and talked to matt for some time.
my alarm was set so i could wake up and study some more for my test, but did that happen? NOOOOOOOO not only was i late for my first class, but i didnt listen to the songs i was supposedd to for music...bummer u say? correct. tonight has been strange but turned out ok, i was told that ive changed, ive been told that before but it was for the good. i was finally starting to be happy with who i am and stop worrying what other people want me to be (gavin degraw couldnt say it any better) but if i cant be accepted for the way i am, than that sounds like a personal problem, that ur gonna have to fix on your own...BUT on a good note, even though the weekend was rough, matt and i got through it and i love him with all my soul and i hope he knows that for sure now, i dont care what u people have to say about it, hes it for me PERIOD! i miss him and this whole separation thing gets harder every day but im gonna do it as long as i have to. i dont care how much i cry or how much it hurts, i know its all gonna be worth it in the end :-D
AND IM TIRED!!!!!!!! GOSH this thing keeps me up all the time its rediculous...but its time for me to get the rest ive needed for quite some time...goodnight
<3Krys