Protectiveness
I've come to realise over the last few days, just how protective I can feel towards ruine_. It's not necessary, she can look after herself, but I feel it anyway.
A friend said something unpleasant, and untrue about her. I don't think he meant any harm, nor do I think he is deliberately lying. But I still feel violently angry inside, and it's hard to let that go.
I know I would gladly, willingly, stand in front of ruine_ in the face of any danger. I know she would do the same for me. I know we could fight for each other, fight together.. I even know I would fight beside her if she was in the wrong (then kick her arse later!).
The hard thing is learning that my anger doesn't help her. That to help her, protect her, I need to let my own feelings go, and just focus on her.
So, tonight.. snuggles, love, a movie.. and maybe a quickie when no-one is looking :)
A friend said something unpleasant, and untrue about her. I don't think he meant any harm, nor do I think he is deliberately lying. But I still feel violently angry inside, and it's hard to let that go.
I know I would gladly, willingly, stand in front of ruine_ in the face of any danger. I know she would do the same for me. I know we could fight for each other, fight together.. I even know I would fight beside her if she was in the wrong (then kick her arse later!).
The hard thing is learning that my anger doesn't help her. That to help her, protect her, I need to let my own feelings go, and just focus on her.
So, tonight.. snuggles, love, a movie.. and maybe a quickie when no-one is looking :)