can't stop thinking...(& moanin)
oooh! i like this pic!! woot woot!
so its nearly quarter to 2am. can't sleep. i've got too much goin on in my head. too many thoughts, questions, tellin myself things i shud get done 2moro etc...
warning! this is a long mothafucker of a post
- - i've got mad bills 2 pay (ahaha! i wrote 'pills' at 1st. tierd or wat!?)
as i had 2 take 2 days off last week & as u don't get paid 4 sick days i'm really strapped 4 cash this week.
then - my uncle got me 2 buy this thing 4 him. it came to £30. he told me he'd give me the money bak but has he!? no. & now hes said he won't be givin me the money back. arsehole!
- - i've got a contract cell phone. the phone is in my name & my uncle is the bill payer. i've been barred from makin calls & sendin txts as i went ova my limit. (don't ask me how) so wen i received the bill i see that its £230. my uncle is unhappy becoz wen he bought the phone 4 me the guy said that once i go ova the monthly mins (£35) i can't go ova anymore. i'll be barred. so my uncle is askin how its managed to get to £230 b4 bein barred. Carphone Warehouse hav shit customer service (i told my uncle that even b4 he bought the phone 4 me) & aren't respondin. My uncle has now told me that its my "problem now & if it goes 2 court - tough luck" arsehole strike II.
so basically he's left me 2 pay the £230. (keepin in mind that i didn't ask my uncle 2 buy me a phone & pay the monthly contract 4 me - wen i was more than happy wit my pay as u go phone)
- - i'm down 2 my last set of contact lenses. i'm wit Specsavers atm but its jus 2 expensive. they started off bein the cheapest but then they've kept raisin their prices so now i'm playin around £100. i wud go back 2 VisionCare but i owe them some money. my auntie was payin 4 it but then stopped without tellin me - i found this all out wen i phoned VisionCare on Sat to find out if i cud get bak wit them again. the amount owed is sumwhere under £100 - i hafta find out the exact amount. so i hafta sort this out b4 the lenses i'm wearin now expire.
- - i need 2 get a pay-as-u-go sim card 4 my phone. as its gettin more & more difficult not bein able 2 make calls. so that adds to my spendings + how much i'll spend toppin up my phone.
- - the extensions i got put in are fucked. wen i got them put in i wasn't 2 happy wit them but thought i 'mayb its the way shes styled it. i'll leave it 4 a while & see how it goes" well, i went to the place i used 2 work to get them washed & styled & they were all goin on about wat a bad job it is. in fact the girls at my workplace think its a bad job & they don't even do extensions!! its nuttin to do wit how i'm lookin afta them (i can do extensions so obviously i know how 2 look afta them) its the lady that put them in.
so i wanna get them taken out. wen u hav extension wateva u do - do not - i repeat do not take them out urself!
so i hafta go & get them taken out...which adds 2 my spendin again.
i've got photoshoots comin up! the lady that normally does my hair 4 photoshoots can't work wit these shit extensions!
so i've postponed them. lol. & they keep askin wen i'm ready. i-don't-fuckin-know. mayb wen i can fuckin afford it!!!
- - i really wanna move! this houseshare is soooo shit & depressin. my housemates keep sayin they're suprized i'm still here. every1 else (thats had the unfortune 2 rent the room i'm in) wud hav been gone by now.
but i need 2 save a deposit & will hafta pay more rent 4 a beta place. but then i'd hav 2 start payin fares 2 travel in2 work. (atm i walk 2 work)
- - my uncle is no longer payin 4 my drivin lessons which is about £300 - so i'm gonna hafta put my drivin plans on hold - 4 a few years. till i can afford 2 continue.
- - the bank hav charged me again. (4 no reason at all) which has made me go overdrawn. which runs up more charges.
i can't put up wit this shit anymore so i'll go there 4 the final time; they'll refund me 4 the final time; & i'll finally close that account.
i don't wanna close that account coz its the only 1 that has a debit card & can make direct debits from.
i've got 1 LLoyds account & 2 Nationwide accounts.
my auntie won't give me the PIN 4 my Lloyds account (the letter was sent 2 her address) (i'll go there 2moro & fill out a 'change of address' form)
& i've neva touched the Nationwide 1s so i hav no statements, PIN or anythin. i dunno if i even hav the cashcards. (my auntie created them 4 me wen i was 8yrs old. she put money in, then emptied them & put the money in my bros account. which is fine by me. my bro deserves it. jus as long as she didn't keep it 4 herself)
i'm in a mothafucker of a bad mood & can't sleep.
i need a shag & i'm not happy!!