Opening up...
So it's been a bit since I updated, and Saturday was the 1 year anniversary of Jake's death. A lot of emotions have been flying around inside of me lately. The anniversary wasn't nearly as hard to handle as I would have expected it to be, but I have found a very happy place in my life now and I'm beginning to see that God always has a plan, even if we can't see it at the time.
My surgery Friday morning went well and I'm not sure if it ended with twhat I was expecting, but so far I'm exceedingly happy. I am very sore, and experienced some moments of doubt about if it would be enough for Corey, but he is so good to me and hopefully not lying when he assures me that it's fine.
I am so happy lately with Corey, I can't ever seem to find the words to express myself. I feel like a broken record, telling him over and over how amazing it feels to be with him, how happy I am, how much I love him. I wish there was some way to show him, to let him feel what I feel. I never ever thought this kind of happiness would be possible again, and this is unlike everything we had before. I feel so drawn to him, like I'm always missing him when he is away. I am always hoping he isn't getting sick of me or annoyed of my bad habits and hard to deal with attitude. I want so much to be able to make him feel this good. :)
Other than that, today is a couch day for me. I've already taken one nap and can pretty much guarantee a second. C'mon body, whatever it takes, just heal up good. :)
My surgery Friday morning went well and I'm not sure if it ended with twhat I was expecting, but so far I'm exceedingly happy. I am very sore, and experienced some moments of doubt about if it would be enough for Corey, but he is so good to me and hopefully not lying when he assures me that it's fine.
I am so happy lately with Corey, I can't ever seem to find the words to express myself. I feel like a broken record, telling him over and over how amazing it feels to be with him, how happy I am, how much I love him. I wish there was some way to show him, to let him feel what I feel. I never ever thought this kind of happiness would be possible again, and this is unlike everything we had before. I feel so drawn to him, like I'm always missing him when he is away. I am always hoping he isn't getting sick of me or annoyed of my bad habits and hard to deal with attitude. I want so much to be able to make him feel this good. :)
Other than that, today is a couch day for me. I've already taken one nap and can pretty much guarantee a second. C'mon body, whatever it takes, just heal up good. :)