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Well, actually being grounded blows. It reminds me of the days when I didn't have a car, and very few friends. UGH!!! Hate that shit. It does give me mass amounts of time to reflect on things. I really do need to focus on my senior paper, and grades. Well, at least all this time alone has given me a new addiction, working out. I do it all the time now. Every time my parents look away, I go do push ups or something in my room. It's probably the best addiction a person can have, and I don't think I'm truly addicted because I know I am, I just don't stop. I need a woman, badly. Oh the things I would do to a woman right now. HA! Walking and sitting would be right out. I really miss the softness of a girl in my arms. Girls are nice to hug, but I want more. I want to truly feel close to someone. That, and I want to fuck! Whatever shall I do? I don't want to lower my standards, and all the girls that I think are cool have boyfriends. Do I do the bastard thing and try to come between them? Even if I know I'll be better, is that really right? I've done it once before, and that turned out horribly. But I have no regrets. Dwelling on shit won't change the past. I just think I need to start taking serious heed of good advice and start being a MAN. I truly hope that it's everything it's cracked up to be. But I'm starting to get a pretty good grip on things, and I think a little change will do me good. I've already started being very honest about what I think of people. This will be fun...