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Lots of stress lately, haha. And what better than to take it out on a online blog? :] -God, stress during Christmas break.
For one thing though, all this stress was brought on by myself. I insisted on waiting for everything to the last minute, knowing the consequences, yet still I procrastinate and cause myself endless frustration.
The sad thing is, I'm still an overachiever. I want to get the perfect mark but I can't put any effort into anything I do when I'm so tired of working late into the night. I feel like I'm falling behind myself, my motivation left me. The only thing that made me want to achieve for something better was one single person but now that he's not in a single of my classes, I have no rival and friend that would compare how long our essays are, trying to beat each other up with clever (distracting) words while secretly supplying information to 'the enemy'. It's extremely sad that my achievements depends on one person and I really need to get sound that, either find a new person to have this kind of relationship with or just, depend on myself for once. Maybe try to get the perfect marks for myself.
Hungry. I want some strawberries.
However a month-watering Ruki would do nicely as well.