woke up from a dream...
and for the next few days im gonna be a bit depressed.
it was a dream about my mom again. and boy do i really love and really hate those..
just seeing her face and hearing my voice just makes me feel like i have a reason to live.
makes me wonder how i would of ended up if she was still around for me.
could i have been the same person as i am now?
could i have been more motivated that i am now..
and more importantly..could i have been more happier?
i really miss her, and im hurt about losing her..after going through all of this immense pain in my 7 yrs(and still counting) of agony..what else could hurt me?
my memories of her. i know that i would of been a much different person; a more motivated one than i am now..and by god i would of been much happier knowing that she was gonna be by my side, and that i was gonna take care of her whenever she got too old...these dreams may never die in my heart..but i know that i will never get the chance to fulfill them..
i hate to say this on the lj post..but im crying right now. but its ok. its not often that i do this anyway. im just being a baby. ill get over this soon enough. but for now..i just need someone to talk to me...
it was a dream about my mom again. and boy do i really love and really hate those..
just seeing her face and hearing my voice just makes me feel like i have a reason to live.
makes me wonder how i would of ended up if she was still around for me.
could i have been the same person as i am now?
could i have been more motivated that i am now..
and more importantly..could i have been more happier?
i really miss her, and im hurt about losing her..after going through all of this immense pain in my 7 yrs(and still counting) of agony..what else could hurt me?
my memories of her. i know that i would of been a much different person; a more motivated one than i am now..and by god i would of been much happier knowing that she was gonna be by my side, and that i was gonna take care of her whenever she got too old...these dreams may never die in my heart..but i know that i will never get the chance to fulfill them..
i hate to say this on the lj post..but im crying right now. but its ok. its not often that i do this anyway. im just being a baby. ill get over this soon enough. but for now..i just need someone to talk to me...