Another brick in the wall
A strong upset has occured...I dont like the way it feels...infact I hate it...thanks so much.
I thought that things were going just fine and you drop that bombshell on me...how selfish.
The thought that over months you listened to it, over and over...sat there and did nothing...a wave hit me last night, and not in a good way. Not the wave that hit me the first time you uttereed it...when your lips trembled and you said it as being affraid...but saying it in some fucked up grief stricken way. I feel that I dont even know where to begin to state how this makes me feel...im sure as you know something that doesnt happen often...if at all. I am completely speechless, and at the same time my blood pressure is just as high.
It has taken me far too long for this type of information to surface now...and I say: how dare you.
I am well aware that I have not been the saint in all of this, but to wait as long as you did...now...at this time when I dont need that to cloud my thoughts. I could have dealt with it months ago, but now? its just some sick attempt for something, but I lack the understanding to grasp what it is. It had no point, no reason, no place to be said to me that way...none. I know that I did, but obviously I was on the recieving end and was dropped off...If it was the other way around, I would have no reason to say any of this, but remember who did what.
I have tried explaining what it is that I feel right now...and its just useless. Im done with it...with what could have been...im tired and its done. I will not entertain the idea that I will wait, I will not. I will not be here to be played with. You said you swore you wouldnt, well...you did. I dont think it was completely unintentional either.
I feel I am at a loss...but its alright. It is no different for the exception that Im angry all over again. I said I would be there for you, and I meant it...always. However:
God what the fuck is wrong
You act like you knew it all along
Your timing sucks, your silence is a blessing
All I ever wanted out of you was
something you could never be
Now take a real good look at
What you've fucking done to me
just some of my anger seeping I guess...
I thought that things were going just fine and you drop that bombshell on me...how selfish.
The thought that over months you listened to it, over and over...sat there and did nothing...a wave hit me last night, and not in a good way. Not the wave that hit me the first time you uttereed it...when your lips trembled and you said it as being affraid...but saying it in some fucked up grief stricken way. I feel that I dont even know where to begin to state how this makes me feel...im sure as you know something that doesnt happen often...if at all. I am completely speechless, and at the same time my blood pressure is just as high.
It has taken me far too long for this type of information to surface now...and I say: how dare you.
I am well aware that I have not been the saint in all of this, but to wait as long as you did...now...at this time when I dont need that to cloud my thoughts. I could have dealt with it months ago, but now? its just some sick attempt for something, but I lack the understanding to grasp what it is. It had no point, no reason, no place to be said to me that way...none. I know that I did, but obviously I was on the recieving end and was dropped off...If it was the other way around, I would have no reason to say any of this, but remember who did what.
I have tried explaining what it is that I feel right now...and its just useless. Im done with it...with what could have been...im tired and its done. I will not entertain the idea that I will wait, I will not. I will not be here to be played with. You said you swore you wouldnt, well...you did. I dont think it was completely unintentional either.
I feel I am at a loss...but its alright. It is no different for the exception that Im angry all over again. I said I would be there for you, and I meant it...always. However:
God what the fuck is wrong
You act like you knew it all along
Your timing sucks, your silence is a blessing
All I ever wanted out of you was
something you could never be
Now take a real good look at
What you've fucking done to me
just some of my anger seeping I guess...