I screwed up royally, majorly, utterly, totally, incredibly BAD.
There are things in life that, when pressed to the point of extreme stressfulness, a person can go awry. And this past Tuesday, did just that. And can I tell you guys something?
That was the DUMBEST, STUPIDEST, most IDIOTIC thing I could have ever done. EVER. Period.
Here I am, it's the year 2008, and I've been having the most amazing relationship with a girl that I have ever had in my entire lifetime -- two years worth of someone who treats me like I'm the most important thing in her book, does all sorts of sweet little nothings just to see me smile, and who wants to spend all of her time with me when we are able to get together -- and what do I do?
Throw it all away. Read the above bolded statement again... go ahead.
What has this made me realize? I can't live without Sam. I love Sam. I want Sam. I need Sam. I can't breath without Sam. I can't eat without Sam. I can't sleep without Sam. I can't be ME without Sam. I can't go on in life without Sam. I'm lost without Sam. I'm confused without Sam. I a total disaster without Sam.
She means everything in this world to me, and I let her go. And now I'm trying to pick up the pieces and put this relationship back together because she DOES mean the world to me. But she's resisting because, of course, I shattered her heart into a bazillion pieces because of me being a jerk to her. And I'm NOT a jerk.
I love her. I really do. I can't live without her. And I want her back. And I'm gonna do whatever it takes to bring it all back.
Promise.
That was the DUMBEST, STUPIDEST, most IDIOTIC thing I could have ever done. EVER. Period.
Here I am, it's the year 2008, and I've been having the most amazing relationship with a girl that I have ever had in my entire lifetime -- two years worth of someone who treats me like I'm the most important thing in her book, does all sorts of sweet little nothings just to see me smile, and who wants to spend all of her time with me when we are able to get together -- and what do I do?
Throw it all away. Read the above bolded statement again... go ahead.
What has this made me realize? I can't live without Sam. I love Sam. I want Sam. I need Sam. I can't breath without Sam. I can't eat without Sam. I can't sleep without Sam. I can't be ME without Sam. I can't go on in life without Sam. I'm lost without Sam. I'm confused without Sam. I a total disaster without Sam.
She means everything in this world to me, and I let her go. And now I'm trying to pick up the pieces and put this relationship back together because she DOES mean the world to me. But she's resisting because, of course, I shattered her heart into a bazillion pieces because of me being a jerk to her. And I'm NOT a jerk.
I love her. I really do. I can't live without her. And I want her back. And I'm gonna do whatever it takes to bring it all back.
Promise.