Gah, Why do I do this to myself....
I know it has been a while... So here goes, bear with me please.
Ok, first off, I think I have found the girl of my dreams, I love her to death.
Now that all the happiness is out of the way, I need to vent. Here goes nothing:
~First off, I've been questioning all of my reasons for being here. I've been questioning my chosen major, I've been questioning my living in Louisville. I guess I wouldn't be here right now if I wasn't supposed to be. I've been questioning my complete lack of faith lately. I miss my friends from church back home. I miss skating with them. I miss hanging out at the church, with no cares in the world.~
~Second off, My parents have stayed pissed at me for about 3 weeks straight. I guess I'm not repsonsible enough, I wouldn't know why?~
~O wait, yes I do know why... because classes are kicking my ass, I can't bring myself to tell my mom that I'm thinking about dropping my 11am class. It's wearing me out slowly. I'm dead tired all the time.~
~As stated above, there is one great thing about my life right now, Ashley... she has brought me out of my rut of sadness, of course I still have all this minor stuff bearing down on me, but talking to her.... holding her... seeing her... it takes everything away, removes all my pain. Only one person can do this for you, your soul mate. I love her, and I'm positive she feels the same way.
I thank her for this... this is yet another reason I repsect the girl.
Ok, first off, I think I have found the girl of my dreams, I love her to death.
Now that all the happiness is out of the way, I need to vent. Here goes nothing:
~First off, I've been questioning all of my reasons for being here. I've been questioning my chosen major, I've been questioning my living in Louisville. I guess I wouldn't be here right now if I wasn't supposed to be. I've been questioning my complete lack of faith lately. I miss my friends from church back home. I miss skating with them. I miss hanging out at the church, with no cares in the world.~
~Second off, My parents have stayed pissed at me for about 3 weeks straight. I guess I'm not repsonsible enough, I wouldn't know why?~
~O wait, yes I do know why... because classes are kicking my ass, I can't bring myself to tell my mom that I'm thinking about dropping my 11am class. It's wearing me out slowly. I'm dead tired all the time.~
~As stated above, there is one great thing about my life right now, Ashley... she has brought me out of my rut of sadness, of course I still have all this minor stuff bearing down on me, but talking to her.... holding her... seeing her... it takes everything away, removes all my pain. Only one person can do this for you, your soul mate. I love her, and I'm positive she feels the same way.
I thank her for this... this is yet another reason I repsect the girl.