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Today was weird and fun at the same time. Mona's mom likes me and we were basically sleeping on eachother at homecomingand she saw! I felt happy!!! SHE LIKES ME!!! ^___________^v Also riding in Frank's car again brought back some memories I don't wanna relive. He also asked me today without like any warning if like there really is something happening or if I'm in the situation he was in. I felt kinda insulted knowing like he never had a date and still thought he could kinda know more than me. It didn't get to me so I was like nah man there's something and you know I just felt relaxed cause I felt okay. Then he asked me if I needed advice from him, not negative though, he like blurted that out as fast as he could. I really didn't know what to think, I don't need advice, but I know I didn't need it from him too. Then I was thinking about what he woulda said as advice. Really I only thought of him saying flowers. Then I woundered if I should get her some. But then I got tired and fell asleep in his car. Then something happened. And I woke up right before we got there. It's not that I don't like frank, he's not like an evil bastard. He's just at times impossible to talk to. Like I was making a simple joke at Briana today not even something to really laugh about just a 'oh shut up' kinda joke. She said she didn't know what was right and wrong anymore or something and I was like well 1+1=2. You can't deny that. Then Frank went off into some quantum time penjulum flux thing and it was from the start pointless. But he kept talking about it so I was just trying to stop him in saying that we're just talking about 1+1 not w/e he was and he went on and finally Autum stopped us which I thanked her in my mind. I dunno, Frank argues far to much for me to handle. I'm also like afraid to drive with him too. He's too cocky behind the wheel. He's got the music on full blast, it nearly broke my ear drums. Then when a car got inbetween us and Taylor's car, he was talking to himself I guess swearing the car off. I'm not saying that's bad now, but it turns into stuff. I hope nothing bad comes from that.
The reason I feel weird today is because I like to play games with Taylor not because I'm better, but because he's close to my skills and it's fun to have like a challenge and you know get intense. I make him mad though when I play and beat him and I hate doing that because that's not my intention. I mean I play to win but I play the game to just enjoy it. Like if I lost to Taylor all the time and I tried my hardest then I would be like man I can't believe I lost. Better luck next time I hope. But Taylor really get's all angry and I dunno, I feel really really bad. At the same time though I have fun cause I'm playing with him and doing my hardest to try and I feel guilty doing it. I think I'll talk to him and see if I can find a way for both of us to play against eachother and just have fun. I'm better, no doubt, and I don't really like it. I just wanna try my hardest to get better. No doubt if you try your hardest you learn. You pay attention to the opponents steps and you beat it. That's how I see it, but I dunno if Taylor has a problem with that or not but I wanna teach him how to see this. That's it!!! If he allows me, of course, I will teach him how to play better by observation! It's the only way I can think of it as. I just hope that I don't offend him! >_< WoW it took me time to write this cause I was drinking milk >_>... Well off to bed
-Kiyo
The reason I feel weird today is because I like to play games with Taylor not because I'm better, but because he's close to my skills and it's fun to have like a challenge and you know get intense. I make him mad though when I play and beat him and I hate doing that because that's not my intention. I mean I play to win but I play the game to just enjoy it. Like if I lost to Taylor all the time and I tried my hardest then I would be like man I can't believe I lost. Better luck next time I hope. But Taylor really get's all angry and I dunno, I feel really really bad. At the same time though I have fun cause I'm playing with him and doing my hardest to try and I feel guilty doing it. I think I'll talk to him and see if I can find a way for both of us to play against eachother and just have fun. I'm better, no doubt, and I don't really like it. I just wanna try my hardest to get better. No doubt if you try your hardest you learn. You pay attention to the opponents steps and you beat it. That's how I see it, but I dunno if Taylor has a problem with that or not but I wanna teach him how to see this. That's it!!! If he allows me, of course, I will teach him how to play better by observation! It's the only way I can think of it as. I just hope that I don't offend him! >_< WoW it took me time to write this cause I was drinking milk >_>... Well off to bed
-Kiyo