i wish...
he would stay...
i could tell him not to go...
it didn't have to be like this...
i didn't feel this way...
so many things i could wish for at this moment but they'd only be things that i know cannot happen.
strange, i really dun know (yeah it may sound stupid now cos it's like you've probably heard this before) but why is it that that i always keep getting involved with guys that i know will not end up anywhere. I suppose it's my work but honestly there was one or two guys that were not work related and yet nothing came out of that even. So what the hell is going on?
honestly, i know it myself i probably could get a "better" guy in the areas of looks, age and status but how i see it (so far) at the end of it it's the person itself that i fall for (i know that's good) and when that happens it's hard to forget, it's hard to let go.
i can look beyond all flaws and see the good of that person. this might not be the right thing to say but i tend to be more patient than i am with anyone else.
i know i will get over what i'm feeling now eventually but it will be really difficult. i'm not one that can drown it out by getting busy. i know i will be but it's going to be really hard. what would be harder is the nights i guess...back home in my own bed, alone. watching telly, alone. i know i have my friends but they've got their own things to do...their own lives...i could just spend all my time with them but that's not possible. i can do my own stuff...i know that but i dun want to...the thing is i can do my own stuff anytime (that's how i see it) but i'd rather spend time with someone. dependent? well say wat you want but i dun think i am. i know for a fact that i can do anything by myself for myself but i choose not to. i'm a better person knowing that i have someone and that person wants me. that is how i am. i'm a sentimental fool...and i'm not going to pretend and claim that i dun need any man to make me happy...i need a man in my life...every woman needs one. he may make you happy, he may make you sad...who cares.
well...i want to say more but i need to get on with my work...i'll be back later perhaps...if i can/feel like it.
i could tell him not to go...
it didn't have to be like this...
i didn't feel this way...
so many things i could wish for at this moment but they'd only be things that i know cannot happen.
strange, i really dun know (yeah it may sound stupid now cos it's like you've probably heard this before) but why is it that that i always keep getting involved with guys that i know will not end up anywhere. I suppose it's my work but honestly there was one or two guys that were not work related and yet nothing came out of that even. So what the hell is going on?
honestly, i know it myself i probably could get a "better" guy in the areas of looks, age and status but how i see it (so far) at the end of it it's the person itself that i fall for (i know that's good) and when that happens it's hard to forget, it's hard to let go.
i can look beyond all flaws and see the good of that person. this might not be the right thing to say but i tend to be more patient than i am with anyone else.
i know i will get over what i'm feeling now eventually but it will be really difficult. i'm not one that can drown it out by getting busy. i know i will be but it's going to be really hard. what would be harder is the nights i guess...back home in my own bed, alone. watching telly, alone. i know i have my friends but they've got their own things to do...their own lives...i could just spend all my time with them but that's not possible. i can do my own stuff...i know that but i dun want to...the thing is i can do my own stuff anytime (that's how i see it) but i'd rather spend time with someone. dependent? well say wat you want but i dun think i am. i know for a fact that i can do anything by myself for myself but i choose not to. i'm a better person knowing that i have someone and that person wants me. that is how i am. i'm a sentimental fool...and i'm not going to pretend and claim that i dun need any man to make me happy...i need a man in my life...every woman needs one. he may make you happy, he may make you sad...who cares.
well...i want to say more but i need to get on with my work...i'll be back later perhaps...if i can/feel like it.