She likes to sleep with the radio on...
I've realized something when I was in Boston.
I've found out a lot about who I am, just by visiting my old school.
When I was at Boston Latin, I didn't know who I was, what I was doing. I was confused, which is why I spent half of both my first and second year there in a mental hospital. I mean, do you think that's normal? Crying every night, being confused? Sure, I had great friends, and the ones I had there, I still have. And I love them to death.
But I don't need them, or any of my other friends. Don't get me wrong, I'm gonna keep them. Like I said, I love them to death, and it hurts me to fight with them or let them down.
But I am who I am regardless of who my friends are.
I mean, at the Crusaders Exhibition, I saw some old friends I hadn't seen in two years, since I left Colorgaurd. And I realized that I'd survived this long without them. And I was still myself.
And this is what I have discovered:
I am Ellen O'Connell. I am also called Puck. I am strong, slightly overweight. I have curly hair and glasses. I play multiple instruments: Drums, Percussion, Oboe, Viola, Cello, Piano, Trombone, and I also compose. I love all sorts of music, except for rap. Although I do like some rap, I won't lie about that. Beastie Boys, Insane Clown Posse... yeah. Those I like. Sorta rocky-rap. I love musicals, like RENT and Wicked. I also love old movie musicals, especially with Sinatra, like On the Town and Anchors Away. I love talking about movies, and I love doing movie/theatrical makeup. I tend to critique movies, like... a critic. A score also can decide whether I love a movie or hate it.
But I'm not going to lie about what kind of music I like or who I like and what I like (and who and what I don't) to make people happy. They can deal with it, or they can leave.
Same with my political views. I have a tendency to rant and rave about politics, being a Republican as I am. I do enjoy a good political dicussion with friends, whether they share my views or not. But the second someone asks me to change my opinion or attacks me on a personal note, I'm confronting it. I'm not going to go be a 'good friend' and say 'okay'. No. Not any more. I am who I am.
Deal or leave.
I've found out a lot about who I am, just by visiting my old school.
When I was at Boston Latin, I didn't know who I was, what I was doing. I was confused, which is why I spent half of both my first and second year there in a mental hospital. I mean, do you think that's normal? Crying every night, being confused? Sure, I had great friends, and the ones I had there, I still have. And I love them to death.
But I don't need them, or any of my other friends. Don't get me wrong, I'm gonna keep them. Like I said, I love them to death, and it hurts me to fight with them or let them down.
But I am who I am regardless of who my friends are.
I mean, at the Crusaders Exhibition, I saw some old friends I hadn't seen in two years, since I left Colorgaurd. And I realized that I'd survived this long without them. And I was still myself.
And this is what I have discovered:
I am Ellen O'Connell. I am also called Puck. I am strong, slightly overweight. I have curly hair and glasses. I play multiple instruments: Drums, Percussion, Oboe, Viola, Cello, Piano, Trombone, and I also compose. I love all sorts of music, except for rap. Although I do like some rap, I won't lie about that. Beastie Boys, Insane Clown Posse... yeah. Those I like. Sorta rocky-rap. I love musicals, like RENT and Wicked. I also love old movie musicals, especially with Sinatra, like On the Town and Anchors Away. I love talking about movies, and I love doing movie/theatrical makeup. I tend to critique movies, like... a critic. A score also can decide whether I love a movie or hate it.
But I'm not going to lie about what kind of music I like or who I like and what I like (and who and what I don't) to make people happy. They can deal with it, or they can leave.
Same with my political views. I have a tendency to rant and rave about politics, being a Republican as I am. I do enjoy a good political dicussion with friends, whether they share my views or not. But the second someone asks me to change my opinion or attacks me on a personal note, I'm confronting it. I'm not going to go be a 'good friend' and say 'okay'. No. Not any more. I am who I am.
Deal or leave.