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So i've noticed that most of my blogs are rather negitive on here... but i'm not going to appologize for it anymore... this is my vesel to word-puke my thoughts on how things are going... and frankly i've decided tonight that i should type a little to maybe gain back some well-needed sleep i've been denied the last few days.
Things are going ok... slowly getting better, and then back to ok again. I seem to be stuck in "i'm ok" mode. i'm in the middle of moving for the billionth time and the only thing that really frustrates me is that i don't have a "home" just many houses filled to the rim with all my things. I was supposed to be all spiffed and moved in today, i had some great wonderful FABULOUS help from a friend, and was also disappointed but another, yet again. I really have to pay more attention to those that want to be my friend, it seems i only have a few... a few awesome ones indeed, but i have many people in my life that...well...are sucking me dry. although the good outwieghs the bad... i think it's time to give their bad behaviour some concequences. why do i even bother with them? well... either i'm a pussy, or they're worth the effort. but i really havn't decided which one yet.
who knows what's to happen... fuck...
Things are going ok... slowly getting better, and then back to ok again. I seem to be stuck in "i'm ok" mode. i'm in the middle of moving for the billionth time and the only thing that really frustrates me is that i don't have a "home" just many houses filled to the rim with all my things. I was supposed to be all spiffed and moved in today, i had some great wonderful FABULOUS help from a friend, and was also disappointed but another, yet again. I really have to pay more attention to those that want to be my friend, it seems i only have a few... a few awesome ones indeed, but i have many people in my life that...well...are sucking me dry. although the good outwieghs the bad... i think it's time to give their bad behaviour some concequences. why do i even bother with them? well... either i'm a pussy, or they're worth the effort. but i really havn't decided which one yet.
who knows what's to happen... fuck...