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ok so basically tegan and sarah is like cocaine. crack cocaine. or maby its just the gateway drug i dont know but it all started when i was staying up all night drawing my lepine kite runner drawing. i had to dig through my itunes to find any fast songs that would not put me to sleep like billy holiday or john coletrain. I came up with tegan and sarah motion city soundtrack and sublime (gasp white music) but basicaly i fell in love and its all i have been sining (not that i actualy can sing it or anything). Now all of a sudden i have new music and new memories attaching themselves to it for the first time since jack johnson freshman year. i have been looking back less and less. and as much as its sad, i dont know im happy, and i guess i dont feel like i have to be so nostalogic when there is so much in front of me. feeling things change still throws me off sometimes but iv felt more in control. iv been makeing casual freinds, lol eating luch with Dan (‹3), doing ok in my classes, finishing drawings an dall of it has just left me feeling alot more confidant.
Not to mention one thing i probably failed to tell most of you but hey thats what live journal is here for. I came out on the 13th to my mom in the car. She had ran into an old student of my dads and was describeing me to her and she asked, is he...straight? and she was liek well... it seems unlikely, an ddecided that was silly and asked me point blank and i told her that yes i was gay. we then talked for the next two hours and i filled her in on all of the things i couldent tel her since the begining of highschool. i love my mom she was really cool about it and said she would tell my dad. and there it was i was out. it wasnt life changeing nor did they really think i was straigt but now they know and i know they still love me and im just happy. its one less thing to stress me out and one mor ething to make me feel a little more confident. allso i started going to the triangle community center and even though i had never felt like i was repressed or like i didnt have anyone to talk to, but i have found few places as genuinly comfortable. a guy came in 23 and he had been comeing to the community center since he was 16 and he was just talking about his life the cd he cut and his relation ships, and it was just really cool to hear another gay person talking about their lives. lol the place is one more addiction, and one more place giving me some confidance.
I hope i will be ready for next year with everyone graduating its what i have been working on and im starting to feel like i might be ok by then but ill deal with that when it comes till then ill keep pumping tegan and sarah aone in my room when every one else is aslep till i work up the courage to tell my parents....i like some white music.... ‹3
Not to mention one thing i probably failed to tell most of you but hey thats what live journal is here for. I came out on the 13th to my mom in the car. She had ran into an old student of my dads and was describeing me to her and she asked, is he...straight? and she was liek well... it seems unlikely, an ddecided that was silly and asked me point blank and i told her that yes i was gay. we then talked for the next two hours and i filled her in on all of the things i couldent tel her since the begining of highschool. i love my mom she was really cool about it and said she would tell my dad. and there it was i was out. it wasnt life changeing nor did they really think i was straigt but now they know and i know they still love me and im just happy. its one less thing to stress me out and one mor ething to make me feel a little more confident. allso i started going to the triangle community center and even though i had never felt like i was repressed or like i didnt have anyone to talk to, but i have found few places as genuinly comfortable. a guy came in 23 and he had been comeing to the community center since he was 16 and he was just talking about his life the cd he cut and his relation ships, and it was just really cool to hear another gay person talking about their lives. lol the place is one more addiction, and one more place giving me some confidance.
I hope i will be ready for next year with everyone graduating its what i have been working on and im starting to feel like i might be ok by then but ill deal with that when it comes till then ill keep pumping tegan and sarah aone in my room when every one else is aslep till i work up the courage to tell my parents....i like some white music.... ‹3