once again..

[teh_beckster]

once again, im all pissed off and annoyed of every effing thing. My weekend totally blew. I was sick wednesday till now, but i'm finally feeling better. I had the flu really bad friday and then I had to babysit till 2am saturday morning. Worked the same morning at 9, and I barely got any sleep cas the kids who i was babysitting wer staying at my place with ther parents.. yea well the kids kept waking me up every effing haf hour. My dads been drinking with like at least 10 ppl in the house at all times since thrusday. Finally today no one is here but the family. So yea, saturday i was annoyed cas ther was like all my dads friends here drinking n charlie n his ppl smoking up here and i got so pissed and bitchy with them that i asked Paige if i can stay at her hosue. Well it was fun staying at her place n all but I kinda didn't get much sleep ther cas we stayed up till 4 am and then I woke up at 10:30am ish n yea thats a lil sleep but still I'm super tired. I wanna go to bed but I prolly can't get to sleep. I worked today for 5 and a haf hours. =( totally bummed out. I hate when my dad drinks tho cas all weekend i was snappy with him cas im super tired and had to work and babysit and stuff, usually he knos why im so annoyed with him n knows when to stop but he asked me if i knew how kyles game went and i was like "i dont kno, he didnt say" and hes like "well u do or u dont kno" cas i guess he didnt hear me say that "he didnt say" so he freaked out n called me a stupid bitch and kept going on and on with the names. I kno i shouldnt let it bother me cas hes drinking n stuff but holy f*ck he didnt have to keep going. No wonders why i'm so bitchy with him all the effing time. I'm so sick and tired of every weekend being liek this tho. With him drinking and putting me down. I can't wait till mom and I get our own appmt, and I actually wanna go back to massey to our house now. But then i'd be so bored all the time.. and i'd miss my people too much.
So i wanna drop out of school until next semester but i probably cant cas my mom would most likely not let me. I'm staying for an extra year anyways for extra credits or at least an extra semester. I'm jsut so tired, and been really sick a lot lately. I'm so frustrated with things.. and I want to just literally hybernate for a bit. I kno its prolly stupid.. but I'm so tired of everything that I just need some time alone. X-mas break is comming soon but not soon enuf.. i dunno. maybe im just upset cas im over tired. Oh well.. speaking of over tired.. im going to bed now.. tootles
luvs always <3
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