Note fail. Friend win.
So as some of you may know, I've enrolled in a course to become a certified nurse assistant. Been going to class all week, determined to not only pass, but pass top in the class with 100% on all the daily tests, flying colors in the practicals, and a perfect state test. This far I've managed to do live up to my own expectations though dedication and hard work, and it's been a self-rewarding process. Knowing I am, for once, better than EVERYONE around me, with factual proof to back it up has done wonders for my self-esteem, which has been at an all time low since leaving Phoenix.
However, about an hour ago my computer crashed just as I was putting the finishing touches on my notes for tomorrow's test, notes on which I had been working for over five hours almost non-stop. I almost never put this much effort into anything, and those of you who know me well can attest to that. They can also conform that I exaggerate a lot, but I give you my solemn word that everything in this post is true.
So yeah, my computer crashes, and I had neglected to save my notes up to that point. So of course I turn the computer back on praying to god that everything is, somehow, still there on wordpad, that it was all just a bad dream, or that technological divinity would be bestowed upon me. But as always my prayers to the computer gods went unanswered and there was no evidence that I so much as wrote a note today.
Fucking fail.
I go ape shit. I'm almost literally pulling out my hair because all my efforts have been wasted and I'm now MUCH less likely to pass tomrrow's test with a perfect score. I'm likely to mar my record and fuck up all my plans that I've been busting my balls for all week. I get on skype into the room with many of my friends from Gaia who I chat with and kill time, share funny links and discuss all kinds of shit. I tell them what just happened, one of them is a little less sensitive than I would have liked, saying stuff like, "never assume, you make an ass out of you and me," and "that's why you always save every fifteen minutes" and all the bullshit an angry person DOES NOT want to hear at such moments. I'm ashamed to say that I began projecting my rage onto her and kinda flipped out, until I realized what I was doing, apologized briefly, explained that I was projecting rage, and went invis to try to chill out.
Fifteen minutes I get the following message: [9:31:19 PM] Linbunbun: http://i21.photobucket.com/albums/b265/Nariko_Shina/Random/ChibiAob.jpg
*doesn't know if that will create a link in LJ, but leaves it in it's original form for posterity.*
I know it isn't much. It doesn't actually fix anything, nothing has changed by that little picture she drew, and maybe it sounds a little strange to say it but when I saw that I actually got a little lump in my throat. It was just so... Kind. I just can't think of a better term for it. I know it didn't help anything. My notes aren't back in front of me because of that pic, and I'm unlikely to recreate them to the level I will need to guarantee a 100% on tomorrow's test. But that pic has made me feel better, and I had to share it.
However, about an hour ago my computer crashed just as I was putting the finishing touches on my notes for tomorrow's test, notes on which I had been working for over five hours almost non-stop. I almost never put this much effort into anything, and those of you who know me well can attest to that. They can also conform that I exaggerate a lot, but I give you my solemn word that everything in this post is true.
So yeah, my computer crashes, and I had neglected to save my notes up to that point. So of course I turn the computer back on praying to god that everything is, somehow, still there on wordpad, that it was all just a bad dream, or that technological divinity would be bestowed upon me. But as always my prayers to the computer gods went unanswered and there was no evidence that I so much as wrote a note today.
Fucking fail.
I go ape shit. I'm almost literally pulling out my hair because all my efforts have been wasted and I'm now MUCH less likely to pass tomrrow's test with a perfect score. I'm likely to mar my record and fuck up all my plans that I've been busting my balls for all week. I get on skype into the room with many of my friends from Gaia who I chat with and kill time, share funny links and discuss all kinds of shit. I tell them what just happened, one of them is a little less sensitive than I would have liked, saying stuff like, "never assume, you make an ass out of you and me," and "that's why you always save every fifteen minutes" and all the bullshit an angry person DOES NOT want to hear at such moments. I'm ashamed to say that I began projecting my rage onto her and kinda flipped out, until I realized what I was doing, apologized briefly, explained that I was projecting rage, and went invis to try to chill out.
Fifteen minutes I get the following message: [9:31:19 PM] Linbunbun: http://i21.photobucket.com/albums/b265/Nariko_Shina/Random/ChibiAob.jpg
*doesn't know if that will create a link in LJ, but leaves it in it's original form for posterity.*
I know it isn't much. It doesn't actually fix anything, nothing has changed by that little picture she drew, and maybe it sounds a little strange to say it but when I saw that I actually got a little lump in my throat. It was just so... Kind. I just can't think of a better term for it. I know it didn't help anything. My notes aren't back in front of me because of that pic, and I'm unlikely to recreate them to the level I will need to guarantee a 100% on tomorrow's test. But that pic has made me feel better, and I had to share it.