Shine on Crazy DiamonD!
Okay...
So i was sitting here.....
I am bored....
I have nothing to do,
No body to talk to,
And i was thinking.. about whats actually being happeneing thee past few months.. and i was wondering if it was me that was pushing them away instead of them pushing me away.. i cant tell now... i think of things that make me think that i was pushing them away instead of trying to get them to stay.. but hten i think of things that make me think they pushed me away. All i know is that everything has changed now, And it wont go back to how it used to be, becasue it never does go back to how everything used to be " omg i wish everything would go back to how it used to be" If i was given a doller for everytime i heard somebody say that then i would be one the richest people i know! Everyone needs to stop dwelling on how things where in yr 7, in yr8 and even two weeks ago.. stop looking back and start looking forward.. there more for you fi you look forward...
But remember, i love you all very much, and you ahve made a huge impact and will proberly continue to do so becasue the friendship deff aint over.. it's just alot different now, Keep on shining crazy diamond! Bcuz even without me you still rock, let somebody else join in the fun n laughter that wasnt happning with me around anymore! I know that i stopped things from being as awesoume as it could ave been in the last dying moments.. but now i've gone open up to someone new... let them have the fun that i did. I love you all remeber that okay?!
You Rock!!
Okay.. so i'm missing someone at the moment, just a lil bit.. but im still missing them. Im seeing them soon i hope, things are going slowly, n i like that becasue im not rushing into anything, but i know i like them... and i know they like me back. It's good.... this way.. we can spend time with each other.. no strings attached but no that there is something there and the longer work at it the better it's gunna be...
Seeing Ho-peng tomoz, n then me n him are gunna go see Debo.. might be a bit odd at first for me.. and im hoping that spending tomoz with him doesn re-kindle old feelings.. i dont think it will becasue of the new perosn.. but i dont think it will... It should be alot of fun tho...
Then to the pools on Wednesday, which will be awesoume! im going with that someone adn a whole heap of my mates are gunna be there too so it will be great! Should be so much fun!
Okay.. going to bed bcuz i have to get up early tomoz!
Love Tegz XxoO mwah!
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