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Heya,
So how is everyone? Welli'm uh.. i dunno meh.
Meh is such a beautiful word, It can be used to descride so much!
Yeah so anyway, today wasnt that bad i guess, well actually it wasnt that great either, not gunna go into details becasue i cannot be fucked, what ever.
Im not in a very good mood, quite grumpy and agitable. so yeah... not looking forward to my b'day.. as Rach said.. "fuck i hate birthdays" Mine will be well yeah full of excitment! How many soon to be 15yr olds arnt looking forward to their birthdays? Well im not, i am litterly dreading my birthday! oh well, what ever
What ever works with so much, I have a feeling i willbe using it quite a lot in the up coming weeks.
Work soon, that will be good, more time away from everyone in dandenong, i am seriously so over dandenong and the majority of people in it, My holidays will be spent in Noble Park with mates and rowville working, which is exactly what i want, i'm looking forward to my holidays tho. Will be hopefully meeting up with James and Sam again, havent seen either of them in quite a while, should be good i guess... (new found glory- All down hill from here [it jsut came on] so fits my mood at the moment)
You wanna know the worst feeling in the world? Loniliness,
I knew with Joshie gone it was hard, but i am missing him so much at the mom, the one time i need support an a bit of help form people... well yeah. Joshie isnt here, My birthday will be even worse without Joshie, spent at football with only one person who maters. (r.i.p Joshie i love you always, missing you so much babi boi!)
So glad i have debo at the moment, i rang her tonight and just let everything out, i cried, i laughed and i bitched.. it was good because i dont get the opp to do it very often anymore... So it was good, and yeah. Debo is such an awesoum chick,so glad i didnt let our little *problem* get me too annoyed with her because unfortantly i knwo how to hold a grudge for a very long time and quite often do.
Okay... so i dont have much more to say without dwelling,
but i spose i realised something today, I need to learn to keep everyone at arms distance away from me becasue the people who you thought never would hurt you always end up hurting you... and when they do it hurts the most. I guess i will once again without realising it start pushing everyone away, I seem to do it alot becasue it's easier to push them away then to stay and get hurt even more, people who i thought cared the most obviusly dont as much as they act...
Anyway, Cioa love Tegz XxOo mwa [- !¡! TeGsTaR!¡! -]
p.s- thanx for saying good bye scott, it really ment alot. I will mis you and hope that you ahve fun back in england... will miss ya hun XxOo