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Hm, I just realized that my birthday is in 6
days. Odd. Other people seem to get so excited about their birthday,
but I could really care less about my birthday at this point. (me
jumping from b-day to atkins will make sense later) A while ago I
decided I would try atkins, I read the whole book and the "diet" seemed
reasonable. So tuesday I went shopping for all kinds of good food and
was well on my way by tuesday night. Turns out that I've already lost 4
pounds. (yes, it's probably just water weight, but it still makes me
happy) Sounds good right?
Well, tuesday night I also got completely sick. (My throat HURT, my nose was useless, and my head felt horrible) Yesterday I was on the phone with Patty, who is also doing atkins, and we both admited that we were running out of motivation and that neither one of us could imagine living without Pizza. After I got off the phone with her I went to the Kitchen and ate two pieces of bread with cheese. (Big no-no if you're on atkins!) My thoughts at that point:
- "You're never going to get better if you're just eating meat, veggetable, and eggs!"
- "I am not going to be able to stay away from chocolate for the rest of my life.."
- "It might be ok if instead of atkins I": ~go to the gym 1 1/2 hours a day M-Fr
~eat more veggies
~drink less juice
~go walk with Patty (5 days a week)
- "It's not a b-day unless you have cake" (atkins doesn't permit cake..)
Those were basicly the thoughts running through my head at the time. I suppose you could say that I was "reasoning" with myself. At this point I'm wondering:
- If I could really stick to such a plan (gym, more veggies, less juice, walking, etc..)
- If I'll ever loose weight..
Ugh, I don't even know where I was going with all this. I just feel sick right now and that really worries me, since my first day at work is tomorrow. I'm sooooo glad that I have a job again, because my bank account is in pretty bad shape right now. I'm just freaking out about so many things right now!!!:
~ Lossing weight. (feel like a complete failure right now)
~ Clint (doubt anything will ever happen :'~( )
~ Job (hope my voice will be back by tomorrow and that I keep the job)
~ B-Day (what to do?)
~ Kelly (miss him...)
I guess that's it for now.
Well, tuesday night I also got completely sick. (My throat HURT, my nose was useless, and my head felt horrible) Yesterday I was on the phone with Patty, who is also doing atkins, and we both admited that we were running out of motivation and that neither one of us could imagine living without Pizza. After I got off the phone with her I went to the Kitchen and ate two pieces of bread with cheese. (Big no-no if you're on atkins!) My thoughts at that point:
- "You're never going to get better if you're just eating meat, veggetable, and eggs!"
- "I am not going to be able to stay away from chocolate for the rest of my life.."
- "It might be ok if instead of atkins I": ~go to the gym 1 1/2 hours a day M-Fr
~eat more veggies
~drink less juice
~go walk with Patty (5 days a week)
- "It's not a b-day unless you have cake" (atkins doesn't permit cake..)
Those were basicly the thoughts running through my head at the time. I suppose you could say that I was "reasoning" with myself. At this point I'm wondering:
- If I could really stick to such a plan (gym, more veggies, less juice, walking, etc..)
- If I'll ever loose weight..
Ugh, I don't even know where I was going with all this. I just feel sick right now and that really worries me, since my first day at work is tomorrow. I'm sooooo glad that I have a job again, because my bank account is in pretty bad shape right now. I'm just freaking out about so many things right now!!!:
~ Lossing weight. (feel like a complete failure right now)
~ Clint (doubt anything will ever happen :'~( )
~ Job (hope my voice will be back by tomorrow and that I keep the job)
~ B-Day (what to do?)
~ Kelly (miss him...)
I guess that's it for now.