in the memory you'll find me

[teethlikedog]

Is it possible to be so incredibly, unbelievably normal that you come out the other side and become weird in a sort of mirror universe way, y'know, with little beards and stuff? If so, then sign me up for the travelling freakshow. It sometimes worries me that I'm so very average and well-adjusted: makes me think I must have some deep-seated

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[redex]

I sometimes have those days. They usually happen on the same days as my "is all of this really real?!" days. Like when I wonder if people actually speak Japanese somewhere in the world - even though I go to class with people who are 'actual' Japanese every day. I think reading so many dystopias has made me full of conspiracy theories. Or I just read too much. Or I'm just crazy.

They do say that it's always the quiet ones~!

Pst! Give me a nudge when you're planning your psychotic rampage, and I'll plan mine to match!

[teethlikedog]

I don't think anyone really does speak Japanese, it's all just an elaborate practical joke they're playing on us gullible westerners, and it's gone on for so long now that it'd be too embarrassing to stop, so they have to keep doing it. Sort of like scientology, except L. Ron died before he could shout "hah, fooled you!" and now it's a self-perpetuating farce. I fully intend to set up a counter-religion someday, dedicated to the worship of the evil Lord Xenu.

Dystopic conspiracy theories help to equip you for the harsh realities of the world, where you get screwed over pretty much every day of your life, or so I hear. I've tried to avoid that real world thing as much as possible, or at least blur it with alcohol. As they say, you can never be too rich, too thin or too paranoid.

I'll let you know as soon as I start to feel my mind splinter, and we can coordinate. It'll be fun!

[redex]

Those stupid gaijin, eh? I still don't know what scientology is, you'll have to enlighten me and I'll add it to my list of things that people really don't believe, but just make you think they do. Like the Catholic Church. Sounds like a lovely idea! I'm sure if you use a lot of glitter and poof you'll catch most of the religious market!

I've heard that one too, although 1984 seems absurdly similar to my school and Brave New World NA culture (and The Handmaiden's Tale what NA would be if the radical musliums took over). I know, somehow, that my school is completely unrealistic and that as soon as I get out of it I'll realize how harsh and mean the Real World Really Is, but clearly their brainwashing is working, becuase sometimes I really find it hard to believe.

With these exams coming up, you never do know when! Fufufu...

[teethlikedog]

Scientology has very crazy stupid entertaining beliefs, based on the evil Lord Xenu killing millions of aliens millions of years ago, and their ghosts getting trapped in the bodies of humans, or something like that. This page isn't exactly sympathetic, but it's got the facts right AFAIK.

I dunno about The Real World being all that different from school. I've been out of college for almost two years now and I'm still braced waiting for reality to hit. I think I'm keeping myself in a state of suspended reality, because I still think of myself as a student and I still intend to go back to college. Plus, I had a worse time in school than I ever did in college or the working world, though that was mostly due to being v. socially awkward until the age of seventeen.

[redex]

It sounds lovely! I mean, which conspiracy theoriest doesn't like an evil symapthetic maniac, aliens, ghosts and Long Long Ago in a Gallexy Far Far Away?

Well, I still concider myself as v. socially awkward, so perhaps when I'm seventeen I'll hit my stride. ^^;; It is somewhat of a problem that I take more interest out of a conversation with someone twenty years older than me than someone my own age. However, my school tends to create this atmosphere of cherished freedoms, and everyone tiptoes around everyone else very politely, no one gets in screaming fights, and drugs, booze and stupidity are only concidered mildly cool. I fear for the sanity of some of the people who have stayed in this 'nurturing enviroment' for all their secondary education.

[teethlikedog]

I stopped being socially awkward by using alcohol as a buffer, and eventually I learned to drop my inhibitions without chemically altering my brain. Prob. it wasn't the healthiest approach to overcoming my shyness I could have taken, but it worked and now I have a best-selling book about How To Become More Socially Ept Through Alcohol Dependence. Heh, I kid. Or do I? :O

I've found that the vast majority of people are as boring as a dog turd, and just about as intelligent. If I find someone smart and interesting I tend to latch onto them like a lamprey, regardless of whether they're fifteen or fifty.

Your school sounds very, um, polite. Mine was a mix of middle class suburban types and (not to euphemise) inner city scum, which was quite invigorating. I was rather oblivious to anyone outside my circle of friends, though, so my brush with the proletariat didn't do much to toughen me up for the real world. (Why yes, I am painfully bourgeois - thanks for asking!)

[redex]

Apparently my dad was the same way, although I've never seen him nervious. He does drink a lot at parties, though, and sometimes it can just get embarressing - which probably contributes to the reason why I don't go out and get drunk at parties. I don't like making a fool of myself. And I think if you titled it that... Adept?

I find that most people I talk to are really intelligent in different ways, you just have to dig, sometimes farther than others. I'm more attached to people who come and search me out - not the other way around. I can be a complete lazyarse when it comes to socializing.

My school is private, and therefore because people have to pay to get in, you know that they have money, usually of an old kind. Most of the day students are from this neighborhood, kids of PhDs and CAs and CEOs, and the kids from other countries are just...rich. Let's just say that South Korea is very capitalist.