Conversations
Listening to them talk feels a lot like mentally awakening from a dream before your body is capable of movement. Stuck in this paraplegic state, I am forced to simply introspect. Is it the rum that is causing this sporadic, almost convulsive verbal diarrhea, or my lack of liquid influence that has left me interpreting their conversation as something that could be used for rather effective torture? The profound sadness that the termination of Futurama has caused each of them has led into the best possible anime, and now, somehow, to wearing Star Wars costumes. As riveting as this all sounds, it’s impossible for me to really focus on any of the words (if you could call the inebriated gibberish, words) that they’re speaking. My mind keeps racing to: How can I marry a man who speaks like William Shatner when he’s sloshed?
I guess that annunciation is irrelevant in selecting a husband, but if I have to listen to these types of conversations for even a week more of my life, I may not live long enough to marry. Adam just said the words “Jason Newstead” and I was forced to temporarily listen to their conversation that has now paused with a “fucking flaming bow and arrow.” Back to thinking…It worries me that Adam and Nick are now planning a firework spectacular for next year. Am I going to be doing this next year???!!!! Am I alone in wanting a still fun, super entertaining, yet non-juvenile way of life? I guess the major difference between my way of thinking and well, I guess everyone else around me, is that I am ready to have a meaningful existence. I want to start making decisions that positively influence my life’s direction and everyone around me seem to be arbitrarily choosing things in order to avoid stagnation, but no actual life habits are being developed.
If I am going to be a health psychologist I am going to have to learn how to live a psychologically healthy life. I am going to have to eat better, exercise more and this whole drinking thing is a huge waste of time and hydration. I don’t need booze to be silly and spontaneous I naturally am. Drinking is just unhealthy and expensive. I am seriously suffering right now from two huge ideas arguing in my head. One side says that I am not going to be young and free for much longer and that I should do as much as possible before I grow up, but listening to this type of conversation does absolutely nothing for me. There is not a single thing being said that has anything to do a personal view, an educational thought, or even something that is not dripping in societal contexts. I guess this whole no school thing is causing me to go brain dead. Between my MySpace internet endeavors and my shitty novel reading I think I am losing IQ points as the days pass.
I need something that stimulates me. I can’t keep doing this whole bar-hopping, television watching, fast food eating shit anymore. I might not ever want to grow up, but I am not even close to being a Toys-R-Us kid anymore and I should really start doing the world some good instead of surrounding myself with retarded conversations. I’m scared. I think I am growing up. This totally sucks.
I guess that annunciation is irrelevant in selecting a husband, but if I have to listen to these types of conversations for even a week more of my life, I may not live long enough to marry. Adam just said the words “Jason Newstead” and I was forced to temporarily listen to their conversation that has now paused with a “fucking flaming bow and arrow.” Back to thinking…It worries me that Adam and Nick are now planning a firework spectacular for next year. Am I going to be doing this next year???!!!! Am I alone in wanting a still fun, super entertaining, yet non-juvenile way of life? I guess the major difference between my way of thinking and well, I guess everyone else around me, is that I am ready to have a meaningful existence. I want to start making decisions that positively influence my life’s direction and everyone around me seem to be arbitrarily choosing things in order to avoid stagnation, but no actual life habits are being developed.
If I am going to be a health psychologist I am going to have to learn how to live a psychologically healthy life. I am going to have to eat better, exercise more and this whole drinking thing is a huge waste of time and hydration. I don’t need booze to be silly and spontaneous I naturally am. Drinking is just unhealthy and expensive. I am seriously suffering right now from two huge ideas arguing in my head. One side says that I am not going to be young and free for much longer and that I should do as much as possible before I grow up, but listening to this type of conversation does absolutely nothing for me. There is not a single thing being said that has anything to do a personal view, an educational thought, or even something that is not dripping in societal contexts. I guess this whole no school thing is causing me to go brain dead. Between my MySpace internet endeavors and my shitty novel reading I think I am losing IQ points as the days pass.
I need something that stimulates me. I can’t keep doing this whole bar-hopping, television watching, fast food eating shit anymore. I might not ever want to grow up, but I am not even close to being a Toys-R-Us kid anymore and I should really start doing the world some good instead of surrounding myself with retarded conversations. I’m scared. I think I am growing up. This totally sucks.