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[teenytinytina]

heading back up to new haven tomorrow. three more weeks of research, then school begins in full force. not entirely sure i got out of this week all that i wanted, but at least my primary medical school application got processed and it is one less thing to worry about. that's all this ever seems, a countdown of things to worry about. and at the end, i can throw all the worries out and it will be glorious. or so i hope. i really do want to go to medical school, if they'll have me. i want to learn how i can be useful and clever and think about things. because i don't think college has provided enough of that. college gave me whole books of facts. lots of useful ones and a good background, but not enough. it's like having lots of islands of knowledge about each class but not having them all coalesce just yet.

and i got a suit for interviewing. it has a skirt. i hate skirts, but as my aunt is lending it to me for free while she's too pregnant to fit in it, i'll take it. maybe i'm aiming incorrectly, but i'm not really looking to give off a "i'll be a perfect" impression but just one that says "i'm a student and i really want to do this so i put on this suit for that, but really i don't belong in this outfit because that isn't who i am and you know that as well as i do because i'll be wearing a white coat for the rest of my days if i can help it." i love how lab coats can make anything else you might be wearing suddenly appropriate in science. well. as long as you've still got long pants and closed-toe shoes.

well, packing. got to get most everything ready for school.