You can't win if you don't show up to play
The vegetarian-friendly cafe in the next town had a job opening on Craigslist this morning. I went over late this afternoon and filled out an application. One employee gave me the forms, and when I'd filled them out another staffer took them and asked if I wanted any food or was I all set. And that was it. It's such a non-event to apply for a job. You get geared up and you preen and worry about how to do your hair, and in the event they don't even look twice at you. Thus, I have to offset the numbness and nothingness I encounter every day by saying "I said I'd apply for a job, and, by gum, I did. It wasn't nothing-at-all. It was hard to do, but I did it, and now it's done." ...who errs, who comes short again and again, because there is no effort without error and shortcoming; but who does actually strive to do the deeds...
I'll make a Done Today list to help myself feel accomplished.
Put away stuff from trip yesterday
Downloaded a lot of music courtesy of sovay
Cleaned room
Did small amount of hand-washable laundry, hung on lines
Sorted out post-school paperwork partway, gave a hollow moan and hid it in a drawer
Cleaned out pocketbook junk
Watered plants
Threw away ton of old paperwork, resolved to clean out filing cabinet at parents' house and move it over here
E-mailed magazine about running ad for CD sales
Looked at CD Baby--may sell CDs there, but worryingly complex
Drove to [Buffaloton], job application as above
Supper at cafe, far too expensive, impulse purchase because I showed up hungry and full of nerves about job
Walk around cemetery. Didn't go in because it was dusk. Cemetery most beautiful at this time, but also place to be mugged and beaten up by drunk teenagers, anytime after dark, so admired it from afar
Deposited checks from last weeks of work at bank
Food shopping
Hit library: Montreal travel guide, Rough Guide to Prague because I fantasize about going there one day, John Steinbeck's East of Eden because why not
I'll make a Done Today list to help myself feel accomplished.
Put away stuff from trip yesterday
Downloaded a lot of music courtesy of sovay
Cleaned room
Did small amount of hand-washable laundry, hung on lines
Sorted out post-school paperwork partway, gave a hollow moan and hid it in a drawer
Cleaned out pocketbook junk
Watered plants
Threw away ton of old paperwork, resolved to clean out filing cabinet at parents' house and move it over here
E-mailed magazine about running ad for CD sales
Looked at CD Baby--may sell CDs there, but worryingly complex
Drove to [Buffaloton], job application as above
Supper at cafe, far too expensive, impulse purchase because I showed up hungry and full of nerves about job
Walk around cemetery. Didn't go in because it was dusk. Cemetery most beautiful at this time, but also place to be mugged and beaten up by drunk teenagers, anytime after dark, so admired it from afar
Deposited checks from last weeks of work at bank
Food shopping
Hit library: Montreal travel guide, Rough Guide to Prague because I fantasize about going there one day, John Steinbeck's East of Eden because why not