I KNEW IT!!!
Everything as going perfectly; two jobs working harmoniously with uni, I had money to pay for the petrol for my new car... my birthday is on Saturday and my parents got me exactly what I wanted, I could actually AFFORD the flight down to Melbourne this weekend...
Everything was perfect.
Everything was TOO perfect.
I mean I was walking around waiting for everything to blow up in my face. JUST when I stopped being so pessimistic; my wallet disappears.
My licence - also ID for the flight, my piercings (including the one I only just bought for the 2nd time that I need for work), my Medicare card, my student card, my keycard (providing me with MONEY whilst I'm in VIC) and library cards, layby cards etc etc
Fuck.
Big. Fat. FUUUUUUUUUUUCK!!!!!
I CANNOT FUCKING AFFORD THIS!!!
The last 6 months of my life have been HELL! Don't I deserve a little fucking relief? No. Apparently not. I'm not allowed to be happy; it'd be against the rules of the cosmic universe. It's not like it's kharma or anything; I'm a nice person. Too nice sometimes... so why is EVERYTHING going wrong? Job, parents, car, relationship... I mean I've booked myself in for a pap smear in July cause my aunt and cousin have had cervical cancer... knowing my luck I'll have some advanced stage that's fucking untreatable and I'll die a fucking painful death!
Dad told me that God sends these little things to test us; what's he testing, my SANITY?!??
I.
AM.
GOING.
TO.
GO.
INSANE!!!!!
FUCKING.
INSANE!
Everything was perfect.
Everything was TOO perfect.
I mean I was walking around waiting for everything to blow up in my face. JUST when I stopped being so pessimistic; my wallet disappears.
My licence - also ID for the flight, my piercings (including the one I only just bought for the 2nd time that I need for work), my Medicare card, my student card, my keycard (providing me with MONEY whilst I'm in VIC) and library cards, layby cards etc etc
Fuck.
Big. Fat. FUUUUUUUUUUUCK!!!!!
I CANNOT FUCKING AFFORD THIS!!!
The last 6 months of my life have been HELL! Don't I deserve a little fucking relief? No. Apparently not. I'm not allowed to be happy; it'd be against the rules of the cosmic universe. It's not like it's kharma or anything; I'm a nice person. Too nice sometimes... so why is EVERYTHING going wrong? Job, parents, car, relationship... I mean I've booked myself in for a pap smear in July cause my aunt and cousin have had cervical cancer... knowing my luck I'll have some advanced stage that's fucking untreatable and I'll die a fucking painful death!
Dad told me that God sends these little things to test us; what's he testing, my SANITY?!??
I.
AM.
GOING.
TO.
GO.
INSANE!!!!!
FUCKING.
INSANE!