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I just watched a really sad movie; it's called Closer. I suggest you don't watch it, it will depress the shit out of you. I can't even function right now. Outside the window it's dark and wet and hopeless, and it's even worse inside. And all I can think about is how today Margaret told me not to let people break my heart. I don't know if my heart has ever been "broken" persay. Here is why: I have always been completely in control of my feelings. That's a big deal to me. I don't get attached easily to anyone and if I do, I always maintain control and only get as close as I feel is okay. I hate the idea of someone being able to have an effect on my feelings without my control. Maybe that's a huge character flaw of mine. I think that's why my "heart" has never been "broken". But I'm scared for the day that it happens. And I feel like it might be soon.