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[teenxidol]

lately ive been thinking about death.
dont get me wrong, im not suicidal, its just
its so hard to think that when your really sick
you can just let go, and your well.. dead.
death is such a permanent word,
its used so strongly and it hurts to think of.
this time it was especially hard,
they kept talking about people dieing, and her.
i miss her and wonder if she watches me.
i cried one too many times, i need her.
i need her now more than ever.
shes been gone for a long time, but i miss her.
she hated when i cry, but i cant help it.