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ugh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! damn it!!! i hate things so much sometimes! god i havent seen nathan since monday! and like he gets out early tomorrow and wanted me to stay home but idk i cant stay home anymore ive already missed so much school and next week im missing two days. ugh i wanna stay home and c him so damn badly but like wed only get to c eachother for 2 hours b4 my mom would get home anyway and so he told me to just go to school. he says he doesnt care but i know he does and i just feel horrible bc of it. ugh i hate this. hes all upset bc we hardly get to c eachother and stuff but i mean i know its hard and i hate it too but i cant help that i have other things i have to do, but i feel so bad, like im blowing him off for them but im not, iim with him every chance i get but its not enough. like we spent last monday nite and tuesday morning fighting and idk i just cant stand it bc i love him so damn much. god now im crying ugh this sucks. i need him. i just feel like he feels like i dun wanna c him and thats not it at all im going crazy without him. i miss him so much. ugh i hope this summer is better once im not tied up for fucking 8 hours at school everyday. i feel so bad when im not able to c him. UGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!