Holy hell I've been here three whole years
That seems like so much longer than it feels. I mean it doesn't seem like I have been in Bloomington very long at all till I see the kiddos that were born in St Louis right after I left and realized that there has been a great deal of life between the me NOW and my life I left then. I am a different person and while it's not always the person I want to be I'm trying. School is going. I think I'm getting discouraged by one prof's insistence on using disclosure in class discussions. Because I so wanna tell my classmates about the uglier parts of my life and the lives of my friends.
Spring Awakening is coming to IU auditorium and I'm really considering getting tickets. It's not like we don't have a baby sitter willing to watch Wesley and we haven't been out in SO VERY LONG!
That said we survived the Ice and hopefully spring will feel like it's here sooner.
I'm in a better place in my head than three years ago though. I'm at peace with being here finally and am starting to make friends that are more in line with who I am and what I want out of life. Many of these ladies and others will be gone in a few years but then again I hope to be gone and back to St. L by then. However now I'm ok with the idea that I may not be or may never be. That this may be my life and that would be ok. I need to make some things right and apologize to some certain people for some things that have happened since I have gotten here but I've been slowly working on those things. I dunno I'm ok with this season being the long season. I miss home and a city I can navigate in traffic in my sleep. I miss having an aveda and a whole foods just down the highway. But I am far more ok and at peace with these things and with the idea of who I am inside than I was even a year ago. Perhaps this re-awakening has been a good thing.
Further out of the dark than in. I hope you all stay warm and safe till spring gets here.
Spring Awakening is coming to IU auditorium and I'm really considering getting tickets. It's not like we don't have a baby sitter willing to watch Wesley and we haven't been out in SO VERY LONG!
That said we survived the Ice and hopefully spring will feel like it's here sooner.
I'm in a better place in my head than three years ago though. I'm at peace with being here finally and am starting to make friends that are more in line with who I am and what I want out of life. Many of these ladies and others will be gone in a few years but then again I hope to be gone and back to St. L by then. However now I'm ok with the idea that I may not be or may never be. That this may be my life and that would be ok. I need to make some things right and apologize to some certain people for some things that have happened since I have gotten here but I've been slowly working on those things. I dunno I'm ok with this season being the long season. I miss home and a city I can navigate in traffic in my sleep. I miss having an aveda and a whole foods just down the highway. But I am far more ok and at peace with these things and with the idea of who I am inside than I was even a year ago. Perhaps this re-awakening has been a good thing.
Further out of the dark than in. I hope you all stay warm and safe till spring gets here.