getting ready to fly

[teensie]

I'm anxious about this day, getting to the airport, seeing my family, my grandmother's face, facing the grief and the organic sadness of it all. I wish I could just put off everything but I know that walking towards the painful will be the best way to process it eventually. My mom is in town to help James with the boys, she's a ball of mess in her own right but I'm hoping she can hang on until Saturday. Selfish of me I know, but I'm hoping that she derives some positive energy flow from this week that she can take home and apply to her own life.

Last night I made a shrimp tamale casserole with this nutty chocolatey mole sauce. I wish I had more sauce. I recommend tamale type dishes. Very comforting, very filling, very delicious.

now i've gone and made myself hungry.