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this is from friday may 26...i meant to put it in here but didn't get the chance....kinda forgot bout it......but yea...i was in a really pensive kinda mood....and i don't exactly remember what exactly set it off....i sorta do....but ionno....i'm so fucking weird and up and down lately.....it's trippy....and i dun like it....but yea....whatever......the following is from friday may 26th....
i "realize" this almost everyday....i know so much and so little, simultaneously. sometimes i think i'll never figure something out...and i'll ponder over it for lengths and lengths of time and get no where....and then in an instant i'll have the solution.....and a second later....it's gone.
and then there are the revelations....where things just click in my mind....and i have my whole theory worked out perfectly.....and then.......it's gone a second later.
i am a genius and a fool. i am an angel and a demon. i am perfect and i am nothing but flaws. i am nice and i am a bitch. i am strong and i am a pushover. i am clear and i am ambiguous. i could go on....but the bottom line is - i am human. my life and actions serve no other purpose than that which i choose for them. .....i am existentialist and i am lost....and i'm thinking way too much and far too little.
i am.....extremely difficult to understand.
i "realize" this almost everyday....i know so much and so little, simultaneously. sometimes i think i'll never figure something out...and i'll ponder over it for lengths and lengths of time and get no where....and then in an instant i'll have the solution.....and a second later....it's gone.
and then there are the revelations....where things just click in my mind....and i have my whole theory worked out perfectly.....and then.......it's gone a second later.
i am a genius and a fool. i am an angel and a demon. i am perfect and i am nothing but flaws. i am nice and i am a bitch. i am strong and i am a pushover. i am clear and i am ambiguous. i could go on....but the bottom line is - i am human. my life and actions serve no other purpose than that which i choose for them. .....i am existentialist and i am lost....and i'm thinking way too much and far too little.
i am.....extremely difficult to understand.