tainted
when things are going so well, i fear that something tragic might happen. i can't seem to be able to accept the positive events that are occurring in my life. i'd take the good news and smile for a few minutes, but the feeling dissipates the moment i process it.
nothing but luck ran my way for the past couple of days, and i don't think that i've ever been happier. however, i still manage to sense a feeling of dread wash over me. am i supposed to take this luck as a present or as a warning of the misfortunes to come? should i accept it or fall prey? and these feelings i have, are they real, or am i just forcing myself to feel this way just to appease myself? if only i could bathe for an eternity in this feeling, not sacrifice this moment by searching for the concealed holes and reasons for fault. the analysis of happiness and bliss is all just philosophical; i wish i can accept them just as they are, not as a human emotion fabricated by others in order give hollow people meaning.
dear friends,
i am pleased to inform you that my brother has just been accepted into yookla. i've never been more proud of him.
i think that was a billion times more excited at this news than i had been when i received my acceptance letter.
(an argument, not yet a conclusion): realizing that your dreams have come true may just be the greatest happiness ever experienced.
nothing but luck ran my way for the past couple of days, and i don't think that i've ever been happier. however, i still manage to sense a feeling of dread wash over me. am i supposed to take this luck as a present or as a warning of the misfortunes to come? should i accept it or fall prey? and these feelings i have, are they real, or am i just forcing myself to feel this way just to appease myself? if only i could bathe for an eternity in this feeling, not sacrifice this moment by searching for the concealed holes and reasons for fault. the analysis of happiness and bliss is all just philosophical; i wish i can accept them just as they are, not as a human emotion fabricated by others in order give hollow people meaning.
dear friends,
i am pleased to inform you that my brother has just been accepted into yookla. i've never been more proud of him.
i think that was a billion times more excited at this news than i had been when i received my acceptance letter.
(an argument, not yet a conclusion): realizing that your dreams have come true may just be the greatest happiness ever experienced.